Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

Going Home...

I’ve got just over 15 hours and I will be back with Daddy. I can’t wait...

I know it has not been long...but to me it has been forever.

Going home is very special to me is so many ways. I’ve had a lot of places where I have lived. Some of them I really liked and some not so much. But I have never felt like any of them was somewhere I would call home. The place where I felt the safest, most loved or the most comfortable. My home is with Daddy. Where ever that may be...he is where I feel the most of everything...but especially I feel the most like my true self...and he is exactly what drives that.

So Daddy...I’m coming home...

Until tomorrow...

Missing Half

Watching the faces of my loved ones...enjoying time with the littles...having conversations with family...all of this is wonderful to me and I enjoy spending time with them. I just feel like half of me is not here.

I feel like the joy is only half as good as it could be. It’s probably because I miss him so terribly that it’s hard for me to focus. It’s also because I want him to be apart of everything in my life.

I know that sometimes we will have to be apart...but it’s painful. Our families are spread out all over...so it’s inevitable that there will be times that we both can’t go. But I’m looking forward to being back home and in his arms.

46 more hours to go...

Until tomorrow

Without Him

Tonight will be the first night in over 8 months that I will be without Daddy by my side....and it’s super hard for me.

We started our relationship with me having to be without him 20 days out of the month...and I hate every single time he had to leave. I have cherished that life was able to keep us together all the time after a career change....and I’m able to spend every single day with him now. I’m out of town visiting family...and feeling lost without him.

He is my rock....he is the reason I want to go and do...he is my everything. I have cried on and off my all day....just for the simple reason that I miss him.

I never thought I could ever be so attached ...but here I am...feeling like I left part of my soul at home.

I love my family...and will enjoy my time with them....but I miss him and need him. It’s only a couple of days...

Until tomorrow...

Rough

Over this time with Daddy I have discovered just how erotic it is to get a little rough during our sessions.

My life before Daddy seems so boring and lack luster now that it’s behind me. Little did I know at the time just what I was missing. Not only have I learned so much sexually over this past almost 2 years...but I have learned so much about my personal preferences.

Now I still love the simple “make love” sessions we have...even though with Daddy there is nothing simple about our sessions. But the occasional “rough” session just throws my orgasmic soul into overdrive and brings a completely different orgasm....one that rolls through my body like a wreaking ball.

I also love that Daddy is more vocal during these sessions. It’s extremely clear what he is feeling and how his wonderfully He is in control over mine.

Mmmmmmm....Thank you Daddy!!!

Until tomorrow

Pictures

Daddy and I have lots of pictures. Together and if all the places we go. Each day I send him pictures of myself. And randomly he will send me pictures of him.

I have made sexy pictures for him and he has for me. I look at his pictures pretty regular....

Last night during our wonderful story time...which for those of you that don’t know...include me reading erotica to him as he has his way with me. Anyway...during our story time he was pleasuring me while I read...and I couldn’t help but to just want to watch him as his head was between my legs...such a turn on to watch him as his tongue makes magic. It made me wish I had a picture of it.

How hot is that? To have a picture of him pleasuring me??? Or vice versa...

I don’t know why that turns me on so...but it does. Now just to talk him into it! Lol

Until tomorrow...

Pictures

Daddy and I have lots of pictures. Together and if all the places we go. Each day I send him pictures of myself. And randomly he will send me pictures of him.

I have made sexy pictures for him and he has for me. I look at his pictures pretty regular....

Last night during our wonderful story time...which for those of you that don’t know...include me reading erotica to him as he has his way with me. Anyway...during our story time he was pleasuring me while I read...and I couldn’t help but to just want to watch him as his head was between my legs...such a turn on to watch him as his tongue makes magic. It made me wish I had a picture of it.

How hot is that? To have a picture of him pleasuring me??? Or vice versa...

I don’t know why that turns me on so...but it does. Now just to talk him into it! Lol

Until tomorrow...

Appreciation

I had a moment of clarity today.

I have been a little mean in my head about feeling like I don’t get the appreciation I deserve at work. I’m talking so much negative thoughts going on in my head about my boss not recognizing everything that I do and taken on since this whole pandemic came into play. Then one of my employees confided in me about how she was feeling. Which was basically how I was feeling...she was just directing her frustration at the wrong person.

She was directing her frustrations at the same person I was...which is all fairness she should have been directing it at me. I mean...I should be the one that ensures she feels appreciated every single day...I am her boss.

So after some sadness on my part...I realized I have to be better about showing others just how much I appreciate them. How much I notice exactly what the do each day. It also applies to my personal life...I have to show the people I love just how much they mean to me...and not just assume they know.

Just be the best you can be with others everyday. You never know when it will be the last time you speak. You never know what they might be going through. Make every encounter someone has with you a good one.

Until tomorrow....

So Tired

Today has been one of those days that I have been so tired that I could literally lay on the cold dirty concrete with a ton of noise and just go to sleep!

Nothing has helped. Not caffeine, not chocolate, not energy drinks....nothing. I just want to close my eyes and sleep. It’s even hard just typing this little blog entry. My eyes are so heavy...

Maybe it’s just that I didn’t get a whole lot of sleep last night...and I’m a person that seriously needs their sleep. Maybe it’s just hump day and I’m wanting this week over with already! Either way...I’m not liking this at all!!

Good night everyone...I can’t take it any longer...I must go to bed!

Until tomorrow...

Sachet Away

I love Ru Paul’s drag race. Love love love!!! I envy the knowledge they have with their makeup and the transformations they can do with it. I love that the show is about learning to love and own yourself...no matter what that definition means. I love that they can be crude and relentless with each other with their honesty.

My favorite part is when Ru picks the weekly winner and who goes home. When sending the person home he gives them a pep talk and tells them to keep their heads held high as they sachet away.

It’s just a good reminder that no matter what the circumstances...keep your head held high and don’t be afraid to show up everyone around you.

Until tomorrow...

Daddy Day

Daddy Day was a wonderful day...staring last night! Daddy my love to me...so passionate and full of kisses...made me crave him oh so much more!!

I know I get a little greedy with his love...but it’s just so good!! So this morning after our wonderful breakfast as we sat on the couch...I couldn’t help myself but to want to please his cock with my mouth. He granted me this...

I pleased him...or should I say I pleased myself....as I love making him happy. Then later...he granted me more of his cock as he took me on the floor in our bathroom. I love when he surprises me with random acts dominated love!!! Feeling the carpet burning my knees and the pull of my hair...just drives me wild.

What a wonderful Daddy’s day...

Until tomorrow...