Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

A new normal...

Still trying to adjust to the new world. Can’t get out of my head sometimes about the things that I don’t want to do...like wearing a mask while out in public. It’s not a huge deal...but it’s not fun. You know re-breathing your own hot air is kind of annoying.

But these little things are just things that you have to get used to. You have to be a part of the greater good and help society get better.

I’m sure everyone is finding their new place in this world...and trying to understand how to make all these new pieces of the puzzle fit together. I feel like the last couple of months has thrown a 6000 piece puzzle at me that’s all one color and said you now have 30 seconds to put it together...go.

All you can do is smile, laugh, nod your head and try your best. I’m thankful that I have someone with strong shoulders to help me through it all.

Until tomorrow...

Protector...

If you have followed me since the beginning ...you would know that when Daddy and first started on this journey together he worked out of town for 20 days at a time and I only had 10 days (really 8 days due to travel times) to spend with him. We did that for 8 months.

I was horrible for me...especially while learning to be his Sub....I became extremely attached to him (which I still am)...so having him leave was a nightmare. He was my life and my protection from the world...and still is.

Anyway...I was thinking about how I would feel about him being out of town while we are going through this covid19 pandemic. I honestly don’t know if I could do it without him here. I’m so grateful that there was a change in his schedule and that he was able to start working locally.

Things always happen for a reason even if you can’t see it at that moment. Having my protector here with me all the time is a blessing...one that I don’t take for granted. He is my strength and keeps our family strong. His arms hold me tight and give me comfort.

Thank you Daddy

Until tomorrow...

Music

I’ve always been a lover of music...all kinds. With our current environment music is even more a part of the everyday. Listening to keep the spirit happy...singing to help the day pass by.

I’ve really enjoyed all the stations and streaming places that are keeping happy music going all day...I’m hearing music I haven’t heard in a long time and I’m loving it. At work we are sharing our love of different types of music and sharing all our favorites with each other.

I’m enjoying hearing the sweet words I’m all these lyrics that remind me of how much I love Daddy and daydreaming about our time together.

Turn on some music. Listen to some classics...tune into the stay at home channel on SiriusXM...bring a smile to your heart!

Until tomorrow

Contract Review

I was reviewing or contract. The one that Daddy gave to me after I had agreed to be his Sub.

This was at a time in our relationship where we had decided that we wanted to be together whole heartedly...just us. This contract was our relationship agreement papers and mine and his commitment to our relationship. The was my first time being in a relationship such as this. This was my first time entering into a commitment of ownership.

At first you read the rules and you learn to comply. Over time you realize why so many of these rules are important. How the rules truly bring you closer. How the words bring together the absolute understanding of complete honesty.

It has taken me time to truly get to where these come as second nature. It’s still hard for me to open up and share everything...but I do, even when he has to really remind me that he can tell I’m holding something back...even when I don’t even realize I’m doing it!

As I read over the contract again I was taken back to that place...that place where I was so mesmerized by him...thinking I was so in love. Little did I know that the love I felt then was just a sliver of what I feel now. Going on 2 years now...and I’m more in love with him everyday.

He still is growing and teaching me...and I think I’m becoming the Sub he always wanted. We are still like to love birds...I still never want to leave his side...and we still hold each other super tight all night long.

He is much more than my Dom, Daddy, Sir, King...he is the very life I breathe for.

I love you Daddy...

Until tomorrow...

Happy Easter

What a difference a year makes! Last year we were celebrating our first Easter together by going to a really cool place and having an amazing chef prepared brunch followed by a really cool Easter egg hunt for the kids around an historic home in downtown Denver. This year we went to our favorite little hole in the wall Mexican food place and grabbed a breakfast burrito, then hung out at the house and enjoyed the snow and caught up on some shows! We took pictures that looked like our picture from last year...just added in our Covid19 masks! Lol

Even though we would have loved to get out and do something new and fun....this one is definitely one for the record books.

My heart is still filled with so much love for this amazing man of mine. We have grown so much as a couple and in our relationship of Dom/Sub Over the last year...I’m so proud of where we are and thankful that we are even more in love than we were then.

I hope everyone has enjoyed their day and found something to be thankful for.

Thank you Daddy for this amazing life and the amazing way you put everything into building upon it.

Until tomorrow...

Tied Down

Tonight was a first. The first time I’ve been tied down.

I’m not sure how long Daddy has been planning this but he took his time and mixed in a little bit of punishment with the pleasure.

He had me lay face down on the bed towards the TV. He took his time attaching the straps to my ankles and wrists. Then very carefully tied my limbs to the underside of each corner of the bed.  He made sure I was comfortable, even putting a pillow under my head. Then he turned on a porno...which I’m thinking we are now going to watch together. He moves around the room. Massages my ass...ensures the butt plug is in place, and then inserts a dildo in my vagina and then places an object in between my legs so neither of these objects will come out. Then leaves the room.

I’m not sure how long I was there watching...but Daddy comes back. He positions himself behind me so I can’t see him and then massages my clit. He brings me to the point where I am asking for permission to cum...he says No. Stops. Leaves the room.

This happens a couple more times and then finally on the 4th time he enters the room he starts again but this time he does allow me to cum. He then doesn’t stop. He makes me cum another time and then puts a blind fold over my eyes and asks me how many times I have messed up on my rules. This amounts to the amount of hits I get with the flogger.

He then introduces me to anal beads..and proceeds to give me another orgasm while removing these anal beads! Holy cow what a rush!!!

The next 30 mins was a blur of constant orgasms, new feelings, emotional overload and so many new ways to experience Daddy’s love.

I didn’t want this experience to end. I was nervous...not for what Daddy was going to show me but for my performance and wondering if I was going to be pleasing yo Daddy. I’m so thankful for his love and guidance and all the things he introduces me to. I’m also thankful that the punishment side of this was not as severe as I deserved.

Thank you Daddy

Until tomorrow

Manipulation

I think we all use manipulation in some way or the other when we want something enough. Sometimes it’s very innocent and won’t hurt anyone. This type of manipulation is pretty common and really doesn’t matter to anyone except for yourself as to whether it worked or not! Most normal humans know where the line is an never cross it.

And then there are people that do cross the line and use some sort of manipulation to cause pain and wrecks peoples lives. These people don’t know there are lines and will do anything and everything to get what they want. No matter who gets on their path...even the ones the “love” the most.

Their version of love is distorted and cruel. It’s a form or control. An obsession to possess. And the victims of this behavior sometimes have been involved with it for years and years...so it’s hard for them to see all that is happening. Sometimes it’s hard for them to even see how much destruction is being caused. A true narcissist.

When you know that someone is being victimized by this type of behavior you have to tread very lightly as they have been made to believe all of the manipulations for so long, it will be hard for them to realize how wronged they have been. It’s best to show them in small doses...but more than this...so them what true friendship and love looks like. Because when they learn that...it’s easier to see when it’s wrong.

It’s best to completely disconnect from people that continually bring you down or try to keep chaos in your life. All interaction with them is like fuel for the train they are trying to run you over with....and even just a tiny drop can fuel them!

Show more love...teach people what it should look like...and pray they see.

Until tomorrow...

Mexican Food

I have no idea why I wanted to blog about Mexican Food tonight...but that is what is in my mind at the moment.

I’m craving Nachos and crunchy tacos. I want to go to a restaurant and just make myself sick with chips and salsa and crunchy tacos. Some of that creamy jalapeño dip from Chuys would be perfect too.

I want to drink margaritas and just hang out with my love. I want to get dressed up and just be content with my love, the food and the atmosphere.

I’m sure everyone is missing some sort of outing these days...but mine is simple. Give this girl some of her favorite foods and the good company of her man and I’ll be set!

Then maybe come home and play!!

Until tomorrow...

Waiting for Punishment

I’ve been very busy the past couple of days. Like so busy that I have not stopped working in one way or the other from the time I’m up until the time I finally crawl in bed. This has made me forget a couple of my daily duties...including blogging.

Now I remember when I get up in the morning that I didn’t blog...but by that time it’s a already done...I can’t take it back. So today I finally get caught...that text came through that said “You haven’t blogged in 3 days, you have punishments coming”. Oh crap...I knew it was going to happen but still hoped to not get in trouble.

I don’t think this one is going to be a “fun” punishment either. He has given me way to many chances to keep getting more.

I will take whatever punishment is coming as I know it’s deserved.

Now the wait to know what it will be starts...

Until tomorrow

Treats

Daddy fed me a treat last night...

Before I realized what was going on, his cock was in my mouth. I didn’t think we were going to play...but he surprised me and I took full advantage of being able to show him how well I could please him.

My tongue and lips found every inch of his cock. Slow and then a little faster and then slow again...taking him all the way in. Testing my throat and going deeper and deeper.

He pulled me on top and rubbed my clit with his swollen head...making me so wet. He thrust inside of me making my eyes roll. I rode him slow and fast and slow...enjoying every single inch. I begged him to let me cum and he took me to ecstasy over and over again.

As he pulled my hair and slapped my face...my orgasms grew stronger and harder...until he gave me to last push over the edge with his hot cum warming my insides and making me explode.

I love surprise treats...

Until tomorrow