Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

Owned...

One of the things that I need the most by being a submissive is being owned. To have Master take the control and guide our lives.

When all I have to do is follow the rules and please Daddy...this is the place that I feel the most free. To have Daddy lead the way...take my hand and let us down the path of life together.

To feel protected, possessed, owned and loved is what I need the most. Sometimes to be treated like a favorite stuffed animal and just cuddled and held...is the best treatment for my soul that I could ever ask for.

Being a submissive is not just a choice...it literally is the reason I function better as a person. It allows be to feel more complete and loved. It lets me have the world I want to live in all the time...escape from the vanilla world that makes me feel like I can’t breathe.

The feeling of belonging and wanted is more of a requirement for us subs than a want. For us to function we have to have these feelings for the relationship to work.

Hopefully all Dom’s try and understand these feelings and requirements to better their subs...Hopefully all Subs are vocal with exactly what they need to ensure they are have their needs met too...

Until tomorrow...

See me...

Have you ever felt like you are invisible and your standing in front of a room with everyone looking at you? They see me but they are looking through me.

I’m having moments lately that I just feel like I’m drowning and no one can see it even though they are looking right at me. And I want to scream and ask for help but nothing comes out of my mouth. Then I’m perfectly fine and wondering why I was feeling like that!

I don’t like this roller coaster...I want off and I want everything back to normal again. Things are better and getting better daily...I just want my brain to relax and stop to worrying!!!

Until tomorrow...

Lady Luck

Looking for Lady Luck to come around these parts! Our last couple of weeks have been pretty rough...and it’s time for her to make a visit and come calling!!

Keeping a positive mind set that we’ve paid our tough dues and now the tides are turning. We could all use more of a reason to smile and see the sun shining.

I went and did some me time tonight and made myself feel pretty...so that I can feel refreshed and ready to fight a new day. Daddy by my side keeping us moving forward is exactly what I need. His strength is more than amazing.

Hoping to find our groove again and get back to just being us and enjoying our lives.

Until tomorrow...

Tough Monday

Trying to keep a happy face and stop the tears from falling. It’s been one of those days that the world is falling apart one second and the next everything will be ok. Just an emotional roller coaster...which is to be expected with everything that has happened...but still it sucks.

I would assume that I will be pretty emotional for the next couple of days...and tears will fall randomly without warning...but I do know that I will be fine. We will be fine and life goes on. Thank God we have each other and we keep each other strong...he is my rock.

I promise I will get back to D/S blogging soon...but this has been a great outlet for me to express my feelings over the past couple of weeks...

Until tomorrow

One sided

From your own perspective you say that you are thinking about the greater good or the other person...but really isn’t your view or your side of things exactly that...your side?

When you agree with something instead of discussing...is it because it’s easier just to agree or you actually agree with what they are saying. Are you actually listening to what the other person is saying? Do you even care what the other person is saying? Or are we all trying to be right all the time?

Have you ever really analyzed your actions in a discussion? Are you trying to see both sides and being optimistic or are you just trying to win the discussion?

Try to listen...try to truly hear between the words. Just because you don’t hear the words doesn’t mean they weren’t spoken.

Until tomorrow...

Ready for the weekend

Everything ended on a happy note today. The stars aligned and allowed the week to end so much better than how it had been progressing.

I’m still needing a candle lit, spell cast, weird sacrifices or whatever anyone can do to wish me luck in this journey we are on. We could use all the thoughts we can get!!!

I’m planning on enjoying some extra sleep and eating some good food this weekend...and cuddling my loves.

Enjoy your weekend!!

Until tomorrow!

No Comparison...

As human beings we take information every single day and store it away in our massive brains to maybe be put to use. This information could be anything or nothing at all...and you never know when your brain will pull that information up and utilize what it has saved.

Sometimes we have trained ourselves to interpret actions or words to mean something because that is the way our brains remember.  And this is not always fair to the other parties.

Just remember that just because someone does something that is similar in action as what your brain is trained to remember that its bad...doesn’t mean it is. Take the time and realize the person that hurt you is long gone...and the one you love!

Until tomorrow

All at once...

You know the saying “when it rains, it pours”...well we are definitely living that at the moment. So many things happening all at once. It’s been a crazy past week for sure.

Everything will all be OK as soon as all the kinks are worked out...but the initial shock of everything leaves anxiety and frustration with the unknown.

I kind of look at everything that is happening and thinking...man we need to go buy a lotto ticket! This is crazy and there is no way that the chances of all this happening at the same time aren’t out of this world! Let’s try some more of our luck!

Until tomorrow...

Unprofessional

I’m having to learn a whole new world of business. My entire career has been with a large company that had many rules and procedures that had to be followed. There was an outline to everything. A Manuel to follow for everything...down to how to have conversations...the what to say and what not to say. There were clearly defined roles and you knew who to go to for what.

In this new business I am a part of I’m having to learn to navigate through No System...a good luck let me know how it goes type of mentality. A no one knows really who’s in charge of what until the shot hits the fan and then it’s everyone‘a fault but theirs. It’s a hurry up but wait kind of place with no one wanting to fix it. It’s a small business that needs all hands on deck all of the time...but the head guy comes in at 10 and leaves at 1...because he can.

A lot of this I can handle. I press though and develop policies and procedures for my group. I ensure the things we need to get the job done Is in place...

What I have a hard time with is the unprofessional emails that get sent out look like. There is truly passive aggressive behavior in these emails...and it’s always to people that won’t fight back. It’s disgusting. It burns my ass...

Just venting...

Until tomorrow...

Scary situation...

I’m currently in a situation that I am over the moon excited about...but at the same time petrified that it’s going to be taken from me.

I’m literally saying a prayer every couple of hours asking to everything to be right and safe and to protect me from anything that could take this away.

Everything I do is about protecting this gift given to me. It’s all I think about...

Say a little prayer for us...light a candle...remember us in your thoughts...we can use all the good vibes and juju we can get!!

Until tomorrow...