Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

Just too much...

I had a friend call me today telling me about a couple of things that are bothering her about her boyfriend. They have been together now for 6-8 months or so...and he has a bad habit of confronting people that look at her when they are out. And it’s the kind of confrontation that is intense and embarrasses her...and she doesn’t like it at all. And his attitude is like oh well this is my personality.

Master and I were talking about it...about how neither one of us would put up with jealous drama from the other. I mean we are too old to be dealing with the juvenile drama. Right?

I mean I notice when girls look at Daddy...I also know that Daddy is a nature flirt. This doesn’t bother me...it actually is a compliment when another female notices him. And his flirting never crosses the line....he is just nice.

I’m nice and polite...could this be seen as flirting...maybe...but I would never cross that line either! We have respect for each other on that regard. Hell...I even notice girls and point them out to him!!

But I’ve been down that road before...if I felt like I had something to worry about then I would have to say goodbye. I want to have trust and honesty...and never want to be betrayed again. If he wanted to go with another...then he can...just let me know and we will go our separate ways. No need for drama...

But thank goodness I don’t have to worry about that...I have respect for him and our relationship...and so does he. There is no need to act that way...just love each other and enjoy life. Be true and honest...it’s the only way to have a real relationship and a real love.

I hope my friend finds a better path...without the drama. If it’s with him great...but if not...bye!

Until tomorrow...

Remodel...

We spent the day reorganizing and changing out some furniture in our bedroom. Nothing fancy...just changing some things to get a bigger TV in place and a little bit of added room.

We were able to spend the day “shopping” around to the items we needed. Having some deeper discussions....

Some of these discussions gave me the feels. The kind of feels that make me really appreciate the man I have...and wish that I could give him more. I wish that I could give him the world...and more.

Today he let me open up more dreams and open up my mind to other possibilities that I’ve never thought about.

It’s funny how life opened up for me later in life. I love the life we live and love that new possibilities are always out there...and if they happen that would be awesome...if they don’t it would be good still.

No stress...just living life.

Until tomorrow...

Impromptu Date Night

The last 2 nights have been hella fabulous in the bedroom...Daddy treated me to something new the other night...and I loved it.

The passion we have had with our sessions over the past couple of nights. Daddy has been introducing me slowing to more intense sessions. Each time he does this I’m pleasantly surprised and find that I actually enjoy all these new things. There hasn’t been anything so far that I haven’t liked...

After two wonderful nights...why not have a impromptu date night...celebrating the end of the week and the beginning of the holiday weekend!! Seafood and drinks...just enjoying each other’s company.

We are both so full...just watching TV now. But I’m wondering if all the aphrodisiacs will kick in and Daddy will teach me something else tonight...hold me tight and let me sleep late...

Until tomorrow...

Painted beauty...

I received an email today from a cosmetic company that I frequent. The email was advertising sessions that you could schedule to learn some very popular techniques and see some of their new products.

I almost made an appointment...because I love makeup. I love love love makeup!!! I decided not to make the appointment because they will show me all this wonderful stuff and make me look super beautiful and then I will buy all the products and then be broke...beautiful, but broke.

I’ve been trying to get better about being creative with my makeup...so I’ve been watching lots of YouTube videos about how to apply, etc.  I think I have learned a lot over the past year...and my collection of makeup is large. So even though I would love to go to one of these sessions...I should get better on my own and shop for deals...lol

Even though I get rapped up in these things and want more all the time...I don’t think I NEED makeup. I’m very comfortable in my own skin...and feel I’m beautiful without any help.

But why wouldn’t you want to put effort into yourself...I mean don’t you feel better when you get yourself ready and fix yourself up. Don’t you feel super hot when you’re dressed up, makeup and hair on point and smelling good? I do this for myself more than anyone else...I like to feel sexy...It boosts my confidence...I feel unstoppable. I also like that Master is proud to have me by his side...and I want to be every bit of everything he is proud of.

Just random thoughts...

Until tomorrow...

Love you more...

Is it possible for a woman to love more than a man? Can she love him more than he loves her? I’m referring to when you are both deeply in love and true to each other...does the woman love more than the man due to chemical reason? Is that possible?

I think a woman is more emotionally engaged with love. But can you truly say that she loves more than her male mate?

If women are naturally more emotional and more “in our heads” about love...is it fair to say that a man shouldn’t be judged in the same way? Is it fair to say that if a man loves with all his might and all his heart that he loves just as much as the female? Because males dont often get wrapped up in the emotional trauma that love produces to your mental state...is it really a fair statement to say he can’t love me as much as I love him?

I don’t think so...I think as women we are blessed and cursed with the emotional roller coaster that our hormones make us. And for that we express love very outwardly. But I think that a man can love as deeply as I do...and I think my Master loves me deeply...and more than I could ever imagine. I think that it would be extremely crazy if we both were experiencing the crazy of hormones...especially if we were on the opposite ends of our roller coasters.

So next time you have that little exchange of words...I love you more, no I love you more...just remember that what brought you together is how you offset each other and balance each other out...and the love you have for each other is balanced and perfect...and each of you feed it differently. Embrace it...and appreciate it.

Until tomorrow

Submissive stumbles

I’m really trying to be better about making sure I am following my contract for being his submissive. I want to be exactly what I agreed to be. I not only want it because it’s in the contract...I actually want it because it pleases us both.

I honestly forget to ask for the everyday things that I do. Bathroom, eating, shower, getting dressed, etc. I always seem to remember after I have done it! I remember to ask for things like going somewhere or doing something...things in my mind are bigger!! I seriously told myself yesterday that I needed to start doing the everyday things...and completely spaced it today!!

So how do you get into the habit?? Do any of you have any tricks?

Master has never denied me...and he never scolds me for these things. He reminds me ...but has never been upset. I think I’m harder on myself. The only time I have received punishments is when I forget the things that are definitely at No No...blogging, daily pictures, our asking and thanking for our bed...those I am not given mulligans for...only if I receive permission prior.

I’m thinking about setting reminders on my phone until I get into the habit. Thoughts?

Until tomorrow...

Waiting...

Master has to work late tonight...so it was time to kick in some of that time for myself.

I went to the gym...made me some popcorn...took a bath...put in the VMA’s...gave myself a facial and started a new book! Whew....that is a great start for me...now just to keep it up.

I also re-read my contract with Master. I wanted to make sure that I am keeping up with my end of the agreement. Most of the items in the list are natural things for me...focusing on him, serving him, worshipping his cock...those things are easy. It’s remembering to ask for all things for myself...and making sure I take care of myself...gym, eating right, etc.

I’m really trying to be better about doing the things that benefit me...and ultimately please Master.

Even though I did something’s for myself...I really miss having him here. I keep looking at the clock and hoping it passes faster...it’s just not home without Him here. Just another hour or so....

Until tomorrow...

Preparing for fall...

I want to get back to the things that I love the most. Master asked me today why I haven’t read in a while...and my answer was the same thing for the gym...work and then once I’m off it’s dinner and laundry and other things that I let eat my “me” time. And he laughed and poked at me...excuses excuses.

He’s right...I need to not let anything else get in the way of the things I love to do. Now...believe me I don’t love going to the gym...but I do love the results. I love to read though...it takes me to another world in my head...a world that is all mine and the story is payed out for me to draw the scenes and the characters.

I have to figure out a way to enjoy some time for me...I love spending time with Master...but I do need some me time. So this week will be focusing on craving out time for that...

Until tomorrow...

Tiny Jewels

Daddy surprised me again yesterday with a trip to the piercer and I got a little tiny jewel on my nose.

I absolutely love it. I love that it looks exotic and wild and beautiful. Master indulged in the fun as well and did an eyebrow piercing...and it looks super sexy.

We spent the day enjoying each other and our time together and then we came home so I could thank him properly.

I gave him a vibrating blow job and enjoyed listening to him moan with pleasure. I did this until he couldn’t stand it any longer and had to take me from behind. Pulling me in so he could get deep inside me... taking me quickly to a hard orgasm that took him over the top as well.

What a great “anniversary “ weekend. I’m glad I still have one more day...

Until tomorrow...

A year ago tonight...

I sat in a bar with my soon to be Master. We sat and talked like school kids with a crush. I stared at him with my school girl eyes not knowing what the next year had in store for me.

We went home and had sex. The kind of lustful sex you have with someone you have been waiting to touch for your entire life. I did things that I had never done...things that for the first time on my entire life felt right. Things that I never ever even wanted to do before...and then had a moment where he place his hand around my neck in a manner that was telling me what he was longing to do but didn’t know if he should.

For the first time in my very inexperienced life...I felt like I was about to discover everything I had been missing and everything that I craved and didn’t know I needed.

For that day forward I was his...heart, mind and soul. Something changed in my that night...I finally came up life.

I began my real life and started to become my true self. It was the first night of the rest of my life...

Thank you Daddy....I’m forever grateful for you. I love you.

Until tomorrow...