Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

An afternoon walk....

This evening we got out and walked around the park. The weather was absolutely beautiful here today...we had to take a minute and just enjoy it.

The park behind our house has a great walking path around a small pond. The sun was shining beautifully off the water. Kids riding their bikes and fishing around the pond. People walking their dogs...all kids of dogs...makes me wish we had a dog!!

We walked hand in hand just enjoying the walk and the sound of children. Liking the sunshine and the smell of fresh cut grass. It was wonderful...

That time is always precious to me...the time we can just enjoy the little things and shut out all of everything else. Take joy in the feel of out hands together in the warm sunshine. Precious...

Until tomorrow...

Memory smells...

Today I smelled something that took me back to my fathers mothers home when I was a kid. It was the strangest thing for me because I only visited them up until I was around 10 and then I never went back...but it literally took me to sitting at her table being served something to eat, looking at her sweet smile.

These moments at sweet for me. My sense of smell is so engrossed in my memory that so much is a attached to smells...I can have multiple jumps to a memory daily. It’s on the rare occasions that I smell something that will take me way back.

I mostly attach the smells to the good memory’s and the things I want to cherish and remember always...like the smell of my Masters neck...it’s with me always. The smell of my baby’s hair when he was little, the smell of my Nana’s house...especially after she made bread. I do have some smells that are burned into my brain as horrible memories...the smell of a horrible man’s drunken breath or the smell of a cotton stripper on a farm...not good memories.

Its wonderful to have such a sensitive nose for the most part...the good memories that come up from it are definitely worth it! And enjoying my Masters scent is the best...

Just random thoughts for the day! Until tomorrow...

Passion...

My Daddy is literally the master of passion. He has the ability to intertwine my soul into his through his body. He can take me to another world that connects us in a way that words cannot explain.

I know that sometimes it would seem to him that I just can’t get enough of our bedroom time. This is true to an extent. I absolutely love pleasing him sexually and him pleasing me...but more than that it’s the fact that he has the ability to not only please me but to make me feel beautiful, loved, sexy, hot, dirty, nasty and amazingly more myself and free when we are physical.

He makes me feel the love more deeply without saying a word through the passion in his body. Why wouldn’t I want that all the time?? I want to bottle it up and take it with me to sip on while we are apart! I want to synthesize it and sell it...the most amazing feeling anyone could give another person!!! Can you imagine what that would sell for?? I would then have enough money to be able to be with him 24/7 anywhere we wanted to be...just worshiping each other.

Over a year now...and it just gets better. Every moment we are together is like adding fuel to a fire. My heart and soul burn for him hotter everyday.

Until tomorrow...

Planning...

I’m making the preparations for hopefully a shot in the dark. You know...preparing for something that may not happen...even though you hope it does.

Something that I hope happens and would be over joyed if it happened but I’m also OK if it doesn’t. I’m happy either way. But still am doing the things I need to do to give it my best shot.

I have read all these inspiring stories and they are incredible. All the different views of how to open up your mind and let good vibes in. How to shed the stress and focus on the positives and focus the good in everything. By doing these things your body responds positively. Either way for me this is a good thing...focusing on body health is definitely something I need to be focused on. I mean I want to be around to love this man for a long long time!!

One thing that I’ve really taken to heart with all the things I have read is enjoy the moment. Enjoy to simple things and this helps you reduce your stress. Just enjoy...

Until tomorrow...

Cover up...

Have you ever had to cover something up? Something you did, something someone else did, something your ashamed of or something that just needs something new on top of it? A cover up doesn’t mean that it goes away...but it does mean that you can put something good on top of something you no longer want to see.

The cover up about to go one in our lives is a good one...covering up some of the past to replace something better for our future.

We have been talking about building our future and everything is falling into place. Things are changing and everything we have been through has been leading up to this.

Covering up things from the past doesn’t make them go away...but it does give us the ability to grow and learn from the things that we want to cover up...to know they will always be a part of us but we know how to still have them and put out something better going forward.

Here’s to covering up some of the past and moving to our beautiful bright future!

Until tomorrow...

TGIF...

I’m so glad this week is over. Even though it was a short week...this week was a long one! Not feeling myself partnered with a lot of “fixing” at work sure made the week drag.

But it’s over now!!! Let’s get ready for the weekend!! Sleep late, cuddle, watch movies and just hang out!

Being able to just be with my love rejuvenates my soul. Just being able to focus on us and nothing else makes me whole again. These weekends are my favorite...even if we do nothing. Just being with him is enough.

Until tomorrow...

Hair enhancement...

I went and had my hair enhanced this evening! Added some highlights and some dimension.

I have to say that there are a couple of things that every woman should do...eyelashes, mani/pedi, facials, massages and hair. Now you don’t have to do these in the regular...all though I do most of these regularly...but there is something to be said by investing in yourself. I mean what’s better than having your hair washed?? It’s just so wonderful...I could go and just have someone wash my hair and then blow it out...that’s so relaxing for me!!!

I know it can get pricey and all of these things you can do for yourself...but it just so wonderful to have them done to you!

My Master likes for me to invest in myself and indulge in the things that make me feel pretty. It’s my time for myself and to just sit and gossip while I’m being pampered. I take every second of it and enjoy it all!

So take sometime for yourself every now and then...go get your hair washed at the very least...ask them to take some extra time with the massage...enjoy the aroma...close your eyes and escape for a few. You deserve it...

Until tomorrow...

Under the weather...

I spent the day at home...mostly in bed...just with the feeling of a cold maybe flu...just hurt all over. Anyway...I’m one of those that when I’m under the weather I can be a baby. Just kind of wimpy and needing someone to just comfort me.

I’m pretty open with the fact that I’m needy...when I’m feeling needy. I’m vocal about it. And in my head I think because I say it that he understands. But how can he understand what that means to a woman. How can he know that it means I need to be touch and held and kissed more. That I need to be petted and caressed...I overall just need more attention.

I think most women have these moments...it’s just hormones. But can you really assume that your partner truly knows how it feels or truly understands exactly what you need? Understand that it doesn’t mean anything...other than she just needs you a little more.

I don’t know if a man can truly understand. I think they try and they are sympathetic...but they can never understand how it plays with your physique...and giving us this needed attention soothes our heart...and not just makes us hurt.

I wish I could allow him in my head and heart during this moments so he could feel what I feel...and understand that there is no reason why...it just is...and just help me past it. I love this man more than myself...he holds the key to help me through a moment.

Until tomorrow

Punishment given...

As we laid down in the bed last night...doing what we normally do before bed...Daddy asks me where is the whip? I point to the closet and he gets out of bed.

He comes back to bed with the flogger and has be turn over. He positioned himself in between my legs and spreads me wide. He runs the flogger all along my backside. He also uses his hands to find where he wants to touch me.

He uses his fingers to massage me...finding all the spots he loves. He is pleasuring me when he starts his punishments...swat...I instinctively call out 1...as I know that I am required to count out loud and not cry out in pain. Swat - 2...he is pleasuring me still....I’m not sure if I want to cum or cry. Swat - 3 and little harder this time. Swat -4...the pleasure and pain is confusing my brain...my body wants more of both. Swat - 5 through 10.... I know during this time frame I asked for permission to cum and was denied but I guess through my sounds and movements Daddy could tell I could hold out and longer and he grants permission...and finished the punishment as I orgasm.

I’m laying there just savoring this feeling of ecstasy...and Daddy gives me more. He enters me and goes deep inside me...he’s moving slow letting me enjoy every single inch over and over.

He pulls me up and takes my mouth...I love to hear him when I have him in my mouth...and his hands in my hair...it’s so erotic!

He then takes me and turns me on my side and straggles in between me...going deeper inside me. One hand wrapped in my hair and the other reaching for the flogger. He starts flogging my front as he goes deep inside....I can feel his massive cock pushing the limits of my insides along with the sting of the leather strips on belly. He let’s loose of my hair and grabs my nipple...he punishes my nipple and continues to flog me as he fills me with his manhood....I can feel an orgasm building like never before.  His pulsing orgasm takes me over the top...amazing.

I know this was punishment...and I have marks to prove it...so why was it so pleasurable??? Maybe being bad isn’t so bad...?

Until tomorrow...

Punishments earned...

Today I was late doing some tasks. Like completely lost my mind and forgot to do them before lunch. It’s been a little bit since I’ve done this...so it was extremely disappointing to me!!

So as soon as I realized I had done this ...I immediately apologized and asked to be forgiven. I was forgiven but was not relieved of the punishment that I have earned due to this slip.

Most of you know if you read my blogs that my Daddy doesn’t let me know what punishments are until he hands it to me. I’ve had all kinds of punishments before...painful ones, fun ones, learning ones and surprise ones. So I’m very curious what this one will bring on.

I guess I will have to wait and see...

Until tomorrow...