Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

Daddy’s power...

I was hoping that Daddy would put me to bed happy last night...and oh did he.

He said to me the other day something to the effect of some of our sessions are more passionate than others...not meaning that they all aren’t great...just that some are better than others. Last night was definitely one of the “better” ones.

It was a semi-aggressive session that got both of our hearts racing. He made me orgasm multiple times in back to back rhythms. He handled me roughly which I have learned that I like immensely...and makes me cum hard.

I don’t know what it is about the rougher side of a session that turns me on so...but it does. Maybe it’s seeing his power over me... maybe it’s how it makes me feel owned by him...I love the feeling of his power over me in bed.

Not that I want every session like that because I do like the sensual sessions as well....it all depends on my mood as to which one I am craving. But man oh man those power sessions have to be a favorite for sure.

Maybe he will give me another tonight! Lol ??

Until tomorrow...

TGIF

Another end to a long week! Thank goodness!! I’m crossing my fingers to hopefully sleep late tomorrow!!

Daddy has to work for a little while tomorrow...so it will give me a little while all to myself in the morning! Just being able to lounge a little and catch a few extra hours of snooze time.

It’s funny how we all look so forward to having days off...even when we have nothing at all planned. Just the bed and pillows calling my name!

School is starting new week...so getting ready for a while new schedule and routines. You forget how much school work you have to do until you have a little around that needs your help.

Can’t wait for my snuggle time tonight so Daddy can make me sleep really good...

Until tomorrow...

Tired...

Last night Master had a rough night sleeping...as he did the night before.

Some of this was nerves from starting a new job...or maybe not nerves but excitement. Some may have been caused by the cappuccino’s I have been making him in the evening. Either way there is no more cappuccino in the evening for Daddy.

So last night he tossed and turned and tossed and turned some more...it seemed always right when I was getting into some good sleep...that’s when he would adjust again. So needless to say we are both exhausted tonight. I think in total we might have gotten 4 hours of sleep.

The sleep awake sleep awake that I was having made me start snoring which also contributed to his lack of sleep....

So tonight we are going to snuggle in without cappuccino’s, and I will put in my mouth piece just incase....and sleep!!!

Until tomorrow...

No no...its not what you think. I have been looking for a new career path. Had some interviews, been called back for another round with some. But you see...I already have a job. Even though my current job isn't really my favorite...I'm not in a huge hurry. I mean my current job is just not fulfilling my need to actually do something constructive...not just be part of insanity.

So I have been Job dating....seeing if I will find a better place somewhere else. And because I am in the drivers seat...It really does feel like dating. Deciding if they might be a good fit for me...if I like their benefits...how was their presentation...and ultimately what does their performance look like! 

Each time they ask me why I am looking...I hesitate to tell them the real truth....that im just really shopping around to see if someone else is better. You don't want to seem desperate or that you hate the company your with...so its hard trying to juggle the question. But I'm not bothered if I don't get a call back....I want to be somewhere where they actually see my value!

Anyway...I will keep you all posted!!

Until tomorrow...

Lash Day...

Sooo I have my lashes done every 2 1/2 to 3 weeks. It’s one of my favorite things to go do. I get to lay on a super comfy table while gossiping with a super cool chic that I consider my friend. It’s almost like going to a therapy session where you come out looking fantastic!!

It’s my time to have some girl time with someone that I can relate to. I haven’t ever asked her but I could bet money that she is a sub. We have great conversations about our “mates” ...and they are very similar. But I have never gotten up he courage to ask her.

I feel like I might cross the line. Because I know for some it’s very personal and private. For me if she ever asked...I would be perfectly fine telling her my situation. I’m very proud of my Daddy and what he does for me. I would love for someone to ask....but I don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable by being to forward by just telling them.

I constantly wonder if she thinks the same thing?? We continue to get closer in our friendship every time I go...I wonder if the subject will ever come up.

Until then I will continue to have amazing lashes anyway! Lol

Until tomorrow...

Chasing Friday...

This Monday was a good Monday...but I’m always looking forward to the end of Friday.

This week starts a new journey for us. We are super excited for Daddy to start a new venture. This will allow him to be home everyday!! We will basically have the same schedule!!! After a year of us growing together and balancing his crazy schedule...we now will have the opportunity to gain some balance in our lives and some quality of daily routines.

For me this is amazing!!! To finally have him every single night is beyond word exciting. For those of you that have followed my blog you know how horribly painful it was for me every time he left for work. Both physically and mentally is torn me apart. I learned how to cope...but the feelings were the same. So this change was definitely a blessing.

I know that he is excited to be able to be more involved in the kids lives and get a normal routine going. Soooo yay to new opportunities!!

Until tomorrow...

Someone else’s hurt...

I had a conversation today that really made me stop and think about how I support someone. I had to really listen to the reason this person was hurting and understand that this persons hurt is theirs...and even though it’s not the way I hurt or for reasons I would feel hurt...it’s still a hurt for them.

I had to really examine the way I have been supporting this person through the hurt that they were feeling. And to be honest I never really understood until today that even though if it were my situation I would have handled it differently or been over the issues long ago...none of that matters if I really want this person to know I am here to support them through anything.

I can’t not be supportive or dismissive of the fact that they are hurting just because it’s not how I would feel or how I would respond. It doesn’t mean how I would do it or feel is better or worse...it’s the simple fact that everyone is different and the way they handle or interpret things are going to be different too.

As people when you love someone and you want to continue being in this persons life and truly help them...just understand what support means to that person. Sometimes it’s just being there...no words or actions...just be there. Maybe it’s to listen...and listen only. Maybe it’s to give advise...but remember...their decisions are theirs...and only theirs.

I want to be that supportive...non judgmental...reliable person those that I care for can count on.

Until tomorrow...

Change...

There is always a chance to change your path, your outlook or your current situation. Maybe we aren’t ready to change anything...maybe we don’t want to change anything...maybe change is exactly what is needed.

Change can be good...even forced change can be a great thing ...it just might take a little while to realize it.  Sometimes we change and then change back....and that’s ok if that is what you wanted.

Change can be hard...change can be extremely rewarding... it all depends on where your head is at.

I’ve seen some really positive change over the past couple of weeks. Daddy and his family, new jobs and personal appearance of myself. It’s all so great and rewarding,...it gives a positive outlook for the future!!

Be grateful for change...even when it doesn’t feel so good....look at how to make it beneficial to you and yours.

Until tomorrow...

Treating Master...

We have already had one hell of a week. And yesterday was no exception. As we laid down in the bed I could see the frustration of the day still lingering on Daddy’s mind as he was trying to wind down with me.

I laid there on his chest rubbing his body and breathing him in as we watched TV and all I could think of is how I could relax him. Mostly when he has had a stressful day all he wants to do is let me hold him for his comfort. I rubbed on him all over for a while before I asked permission to pleasure him. I made sure I had rubbed on him enough that he was pleasantly aroused...so he granted my request.

I moved down on him and started at his jewels....taking them in and out of my mouth slowly. Sucking and kissing and licking...alternating up and down his shaft. Finally moving to take his shaft in my mouth.

I worked him slow and steady...continuing to rub and massage his jewels...keeping everything extremely wet...adding pressure on the shaft with my thumb and make sure my tongue ring massages perfectly.

His fingers wrap into my hair...he massages my breasts....then he puts both hands into my hair and I can feel him flexing in his hips. I add more pressure and suction and he starts to groan with pleasure...he speaks and tells me he’s about to cum...I take him slow and steady and take it all in..enjoying the sounds coming from him.

Just the look on his face I know I have made the day fade away and given my Daddy a reason to rest better. I love to please him....

Sweet pleasure in treating Master...it’s oddly pleasing to me without even an orgasm.

Until tomorrow...

Karma is a BITCH...

I found out today that the window that was busted out of my car was actually done by someone I know. This particular someone decided to do this childish action due to her own internal anger that she is directing towards me.

Now I have done nothing to this woman...in fact I have been continuously nice to her when I didn’t have to be. And when I say nice...I mean I have done things for her that her own people would not do. The continuous problems this woman has have been a cause of her own life decisions...not mine...but she can’t see through her self lies to recognize the truth in the mirror...instead she chooses to blame me.

All I have to say about the entire thing is...IM DONE. No more favors, no more nicey nice, no more nothing...this bitch falls in the gutter again...she can freakin rot there for all I care...

You shouldn’t burn bridges when you’re the only one on the other side... you have nobody else willing to help you!!!

Dear dumbass...Karma is a nasty crazy bitch... and you just crawled in bed with her. Reap what you sow....I hope you find peace with yourself and reflect on the truth...and gain some sort of self respect...because you are definitely gonna need it since you’re completely alone now.

I’ve said my peace...it’s over...I’m done.

Until tomorrow...