Stress is a funny thing...it effects people different.
Me...I’m the type that the more stress I am under the more cooler I get. It’s almost like it’s where I strive and the best parts of me come out. Being under pressure just makes me become my best self.
Him...the total opposite of me. Stress puts him in a negative place. Throws his world in a spin...and he says that sometimes his anger will spill out. I haven’t seen that yet...but I’m sure I will someday.
But when we are together we balance each other. I can calm him when he is frustrated and feeling overwhelmed. And he can settle my emotions when I feel them coming in.
Sometimes I’m too relaxed...meaning I forget about things. But in the same regard...I get panicked if I’m not getting some sort of direction or validation from him. I’m pretty relaxed about everything...except him. I worry constantly about if I’m doing the right things...am I making him happy? I want to help him when he needs me....it’s where I perform the best. But I hate to see him having to deal with any drama....
I think as a submissive it’s hard to know when to step in an say “lean on me” for a bit...I got you. And I think as a Dom...it’s hard to admit you might actually need it.
Our balance is finding itself...and we are finding our yin and yang with each other.
Until tomorrow...