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Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

I'm a owned and collared. The journey I have been on with Daddy is amazing...and only gets better! This is my daily entries of what is going on in my head and stories of all the things I’m learning with Daddy!
6 years ago. January 22, 2019 at 4:14 AM

D Day for the 5th time and it’s still no better than the first time. I feel emptiness...

 


I keep hoping at some point I will get used to it...but I’m not. I think I’m learning to cope a little better and maybe better prepared mentally for it...but the emptiness and loneliness just hurts more. Even when I know it’s coming...the pain is still horrible. My air has been taken from me and I feel like I am slowly suffocating. 

 


I have planned out my days to ensure I won’t just sit, cry and stare at the wall begging for the time to hurry and bring him back to me. I will be productive...and I will try and curb the tears to a minimum. He suggested I look at it as a really really long day...and the nights as my naps until he comes home to me. 

 


I can do this...I am his and he gives me strength. Time to start the countdown....17 days....

 


Until tomorrow...

Loulou​(sub female) - Hugs ?
6 years ago

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