10 more days...
We are at the half way point...so why am I so weepy? This period away from him has been exceptionally harder for me than it has been in the past. I find myself really struggling today just to get through. I actually cried in front of him tonight...I don’t do that anymore...I know how much it bothers him so I usually am very good at keeping those moments to myself. But tonight it just came out!!
I’m still just missing him so badly right now...tears are just streaming down my face. It’s been so weird over the past couple of days...I’ve been weepy, sleepy, hungry and cold. Sooo...what do you want to do when you feel this way??? Lay in bed...cry and sleep. Ugh...so pathetic. I did manage to get to the gym today, sweep and mop the house...but that’s about it.
I need to get outta this funk!!! I miss him so badly...but I know this is not good for me to be like this. This is not who he feel in love with...I’m better than this!! I need to get better about following my rules and asking him for permission for everything...and I mean everything. It will help me focus on my duty of submission to him...and focus on what I can submit to him while he is gone.I just miss him so much!!!
Tomorrow is going to be a good day! I have an interview...so I’m keeping my fingers crossed that it will all work out to get us one step closer to where we want to be.
Until tomorrow....