Away Day 15
Love is a funny thing. It makes you do crazy things. It makes you high and it takes you low. It’s a roller coaster of emotions and it makes you act in ways you normally would not. It makes you brave and it takes you to your hiding place.
For me love is letting myself be loved by a man that does love me. Learning to trust that it’s real. Letting myself feel emotions that I have never felt. Feeling secure for the first time in my life. And being able to believe in another person.
When love is real it’s knowing that even when there are doubts (because of everything you have been dealt before) that it’s false and you feel totally at ease. It finding that gut feeling is telling you to stay and hold on tight instead of leaving. It’s truly trusting someone with everything...and I mean everything...and thankful for every single moment that you have together...even the tough times.
I am living with love from my Master. It’s absolutely the best feeling in the world...and also the hardest because I never want to be with out him. I feel his ownership of me every moment but I miss his presence. My heart is filled with joy by any notion of attention from him...and aches without it.
Like I said...Love is a funny thing...especially since I never knew love to could this wonderful!
Until tomorrow...
