Away Day 18
48 hours can’t come soon enough. I’m thankful that I have a busy 48 ahead of me...because honestly it hard to think about anything else.
I find myself almost completely debilitated waiting for him. I think a lot of it is that I have been completely alone for this last 2 weeks...it’s given me lots of time to think. Probably too much time.
Time to ponder on my feelings of myself. Where I want to be in my mind and how I hold myself back. How I think about him and if I’m being the best for him...even when he is gone. Coming to grips with my personal demons...
I feel better with him...I need him more than he knows. But this journey has been good for me. Finding my beauty in the mirror and loving myself. Being given the ability to find my own courage through the support of my Master has been a wonderful and scary experience.
I’m doing things now that I would have never done before....and proud of myself.
Tick tock the clock is counting down!!
Until tomorrow...