Without Him Day 12
I felt a little melancholy today. You know those days that your just sad...no reason really...just sad. Missing him terribly today....missing his presence.
It was one of those days that you just want to curl up in the bed and be held. Be held close enough that I can feel his heart beat. Feel his breath...smell him. My heart yearns for him.
I think it started because I accidentally erased all of the text messages we had. He has two phones so I still have all of the others ones...but the ones I lost were the entire thread since we started talking! I know it’s stupid...but those were precious to me. The sweet dialogue of us falling in love...of the beginning of our relationship...of all the beginnings of or Dom/Sub relationship...all there in a story to read over and over again. It broke my heart...
I have all the memories...but the beauty of reading it is gone. I cried.
On the positive side...I can make a new story line with him to read. I have to find the positive somewhere...I just love him so much that everything from him is precious...every word, every emotion, every gift, everything!!!
Until tomorrow...
