Online now
  •  Home
  • Blogs
  • Forum
  • Magazine
  • Find friends
  • Contacts
  • Seeking
  • Events
  • Podcasts
  • Chat rooms
  • Help
Online now

Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

I'm a owned and collared. The journey I have been on with Daddy is amazing...and only gets better! This is my daily entries of what is going on in my head and stories of all the things I’m learning with Daddy!
6 years ago. April 3, 2019 at 4:13 AM

Without Him Day 13

 


I have a serious problem with obsessing over personal perfection. It’s with all things...at work, the way I put on my makeup, how I do my hair, the way the line in your socks line up on your toes, etc. Mostly the things that are directly a reflection of my performance of anything! 

 


It’s a blessing and a curse. It gives me beautiful focus to be creative, great smelling laundry, beautiful eye makeup, and great handwriting. The unfortunate part of it is when things are looking like you are doing good or I’m not able to make something go right...it’s almost debilitating. It’s extremely hard to factor in all of the outside influences that effect any goal or plan you set. And it’s even harder to just go with the flow when there is a perceived view of personal failure.

 


I set an extremely high expectation for myself...and the idea of not being successful at anything that I want to succeed at...is hard. This is something I do to myself...and I recognize that and I’m trying to be more “go with the flow “ with myself. It’s a process...

 


I’m thankful for my Daddy and that he try’s to help ease my anxiety about things and helps me relax by just talking me through some of my frustrations. Just listening to him helps me see things differently....or realize that I’m making a mountain out of a mole hill. It’s strange how most things I’m so relaxed at...and others I become obsessed with...there’s no in between! Lol

 


Until tomorrow...

Sensual City Girl​{ForeverHIS} - I struggle with the same. I had my address once cut my hair asymmetrical and to before I got out of the chair, I had her even it out. My daughter and I are the same as far socks go. Everything has to be balanced. However, over the years with having had kids, I’m not so bad and after having met Daddy, I’ve really learned how to go with the flow. It is a process, but once you accept it becomes much easier.
6 years ago
Sensual City Girl​{ForeverHIS} - *hairdresser. See, darn autocorrect! ?
6 years ago
Miss Scarlet - I felt like I was reading my own thoughts in this. You are not alone.
6 years ago

You must be registered and signed in to comment


Register Sign in
Got it!
The site that you are about to view contains content only suitable for adults. You must be over 18 to use this site. We also use cookies to ensure you get the best experience.