Distance sucks...it seriously fucks with your head. If my heart won over complete control over me...I would quit my job, abandon everything I have and go to him...across the country...no matter the cost and no matter the consequences that my fall upon me to do so.
But my head takes over and reminds me that my job is to take care of my Master...my Daddy. What worries would I place on him if I abandoned everything? What stress would that add?
Above everything I want him to be pleased at all times. Even though my desires to be with him every second of every day are real...he has different desires and dreams that I have to remember to not take for granted. I have to be supportive in the other aspects of his life...his career, his hobbies and his interests....and not be selfish and want it all for myself. Part of being his is to ensure that he is my King and I keep him happy with everything he wants in life...not just me.
I am selfish in wanting what I want.... I want his attention, his kisses, his touch, his body, his cock inside of me...his love.....and this is where it's so hard to be his slave....I don't call the shots...I'm not the boss...I don't get what I want when I want it when it comes to this.
Will this get easier? I can't see that it will....especially when I fall deeper in love and submission to him daily...even when he is not here. Can you imagine how I will be after I get him back for 10 days and have to let him go again??
Hopefully something will change soon and this will be easier or we find a way to make this situation better. I want to support him daily in all aspects of his life...and a man needs to be touched, pampered and loved...and allowed to be a man and take possession of all that is his....EVERYDAY...IN THE FLESH.
Life is to short to not enjoy the one you want to be with...and I want him to experience the pleasure of life with me daily...I want to give him amazing moments...and never miss one.
Until tomorrow...
