8 more days and counting. I CAN NOT wait to have him home...I miss him so much. The emptiness of not having him with me is hard...I feel so much better when we are on the phone....but its still a little overwhelming sometimes how much my world is empty without him near me. I want so badly to be with him...I need it.
It's funny how you can notice the littest things about people when you're in that lost state of mind. Things that when you are going about your life regularly you really don't pay attention to or give a second thought...but today I noticed.
I noticed because my life is forever changed by this man. It's changed in so many ways...all for the better. I cherish the smallest things about him and our time together...every single second is precious. I makes me appreciate all the little things around me too...my family, my health, my pets...my book, my bed....I could go on...but you get the picture....the world is just a brighter place now...and I want to enjoy it all...especially with him. My worries are less and my happiness is happier (if that's possible)....even when I am missing him to my core and tears roll down my face...it's still a beautiful thing...even in moments of sadness...it's coming from a place of love.
I typically dont watch this news because I can't stand the sadness...I can't stand the hate that people pour all over each other. I want election day to be over...it doesn't matter what side you are on...nothing is ever protrayed in a good light to the other side. I listen to how people talk about other people, groups, opinions, religions...sometimes the person thats just down the hall....and it truly is heart breaking. I feel others distaste for me...maybe because I speak my mind, I'm in love and not afraid to show it...or maybe it's because I wore a cuter outfit than them today...who knows. But all I can think to myself is why....Why do people do this? Why?
I'm not saying I have never done these things I noticed....but I damn sure do it less. I makes me wonder if I was ever that ugly to others as some people I encountered today were. Did it take me finding a real love to find peace enough in myself to stop the ugliness?
The world is such a beautiful place...even when there is sadness....why do we not stop and take value in the things and people around you. Sometimes people remove their own value and allow to much ugliness to come out and then it's up to you on whether you want to be apart of that or not....but overall we have control of how we want to live our lives....and why would you choose anything other than happiness and love.
Now that I have it...I never want to let it go. I want to ensure that I stay "beautiful" not only for myself and my Master...but to maybe give one other person the hope to know that it is possible to be in a world that is beautiful....and it's up to us to shut out the ugliness and not feed into it or let it be a part of you.
To the ugly people I encountered today...I feel sorry for you....and I hope that whatever you are going through changes for the better. I am removing your ugliness out of my mind and continuing to focus on my love. My Master has made me see differently....and the world is full of possibilities for me and for us...and they don't concern or include you.
Until tomorrow...
