Today was a little hard...I really miss him. Its not more or less than any other day...but some days it just takes a little more effort to focus on the count down and not to get stuck in the moment and being without him. I did good...no tears...but it was hard to shake the emptiness of not having his touch readily available.
It also got me thinking about all the beautiful subs that comment on my blogs, that write their stories as well, or some of the others that are on this site...but never say a word. I think its very interesting that us subs follow each other and support each other...and its really interesting how many of us have the same kind of story. Our master is away, lives in another state, only get to see him on special occasions, etc. It makes you wonder why that is...it also makes me wonder if more doms feel that loneliness while away from their subs?
Most of us write about our deep need to have them with us, the love we bleed for them, the need we have to serve them. I often wonder what my Dom's blog would look like if he were to write one about me? I wonder if other Dom's read these blogs and see how their submissives bleed love for them?
My Dom read's all of mine...sometimes he comments and makes my heart happy. He always "likes" them...and I know he knows that I pour my soul into the honesty that comes out. And I know that I am truly blessed to be his...in so many ways. He takes a true interest in how I am feeling and what is going on in my head. He wants to know all of me...and the more I pour out...he more he pours into me to fill me up and make me fall more in love with him daily. The more open I am...with my mind and my body...the more I am drawn to him...the more I need him...the more I want to give.
My heart breaks with each of the heart wrenching blogs that I read about subs missing their Doms. I hope that their Doms are as wonderful as mine. I hope their Dom's love them like mine loves me. I hope that each one of them feel the way I do when my Master calls, texts, video calls, sends an email or tells me he's coming home. I hope that each one of them feels secure and safe with their Dom...no matter how far away he might be. I hope their Dom makes them feel more special than they have ever felt...every single day.
I know that this place is a place to be open and honest with our lifestyle...and sometimes I feel like some of my posts are all about love and not so much about the lifestyle....but to my this lifestyle has finally opened me up to real love. Not the kind of love you see on TV, not the kind any vanilla couple has, not the kind your vanilla parents taught you....but the kind that only your soul can understand. The kind that has unlocked your mind, your heart and your body to bond with someone else. The kind where all of that combined gives you the ability to meld all of your senses together and be free with each other. The kind that makes you hurt physically when you are apart....
I hope subs and doms both read through these blogs and understand that you are witnessing through words raw submission in it's truest form in the blog posts. Whether sad, happy or sexy...you can see a glimpse of the submissive heart and how it desires not any Dom but her one....It's such a beautiful thing.
I love you @Ltljoker...thank you for choosing me and making me yours. I miss you....
Until tomorrow.
