Six more days until my world is back in the right spin...when Sir will be back in the same space as me. Where we can breathe the same air, smell the same smells, touch each other's skin. The desires I have just to be in his presence are strong. So strong it really gets me thinking about my "wants".
Most of us have the same "wants"...the simplistic ones of happiness and love...which mostly we can control ourselves...then there is health...which can be helped with a lifestyle condusive to health, but is some times defined with your genes...then there are the materialistic ones...win the lotto, nice house, nice car or Louis Vuitton everything.
My wants are a little of all of that combined...just a lot more defined. I want to be able to be with him all the time. I want to have a job that lets me do what I want and be where I need to be to serve him. I want the kind of bank account that would allow us to travel and do things that enhance the joy in this life. I want to be healthy to be able to do all the wonderful things our body's are meant to do...especially what our bodies do together...for a very long time! I want happiness for all the people I love...especially for him.
Sometimes all of the wants cloud the mind for what you have. As much as I want to be with him every single day...and I am working hard at trying to make that happen...Im realizing that I do have him every day. I have his voice, his pictures, his video calls...I have the love he expresses to me each time we talk...We have jobs that allows us to have fun when we are together. We have a roof over our heads, cars to drive, TV's to watch, Cellphones to talk and most importantly we have each other!!
So in the moments that I am wishing for more and hoping to get there soon....I really want to stop today and appreciate what I do have. What I do have is an amazing partner that fills my life with so much joy and happiness...and has opened up a world that is real...and opened my soul to experiences that I never even knew exsisted.
As much as I would love to win the lotto....I truly already have! I have dreamed about having a man like him my entire life. I have dreamed of having a connection with someone that goes far deeper than skin or bank accounts...I have dreamed of finding someone that wanted to love all of me...and I have dreamed of finding that one that I can truly give all of myself to. I have...and I am forever thankful because my one true "want" has finally came true. A dream, a wish that is true....and I have him every single day. He is mine and I am forever his.
I still wouldn't mind a couple of Louis Vuitton purses though..... :-)
Until tomorrow.
