Sweet bliss of being together. The smell of him...his touch...just watching him do the little things just takes my breathe away. How is it that one single person can have so much awe in my eyes. I hope this feeling never goes away.
It’s still a dream to me the way everything is turning out. For me it’s perfect...well mostly perfect. I do still have doubts sometimes about me personally on this side of the partnership...Am I doing enough? I have no idea why I keep questioning myself??? Maybe it’s because I have always been the dominant (not that I liked it...in fact I hated it)...but because that is what I have always been used to...I’m always wondering if I am doing what I should?
I don’t want to bother him with these questions because I don’t want him to think that I am doubting myself again...personally I feel better than I ever have!! But as a submissive I am always wondering if I should be doing more to please him.... I mean am I supposed to wait for him to command me? Do I take the initiative to just do it for him?
Some of these conundrums are still hard for me to understand....I want to stay in my role in this relationship...I don’t want to step out. Sometimes that line gets hazy for me... and I know that still being in training is part of the process.
It’s funny how the more I know about this life the more personal questions come into play...especially for regular day to day life. Maybe I just need to sit down with him and go over expectations...maybe I need more rules? Who knows....I just want to give him the best of me.
Any feedback or suggestions are welcome.
Until tomorrow...
