It was a hard day...D Day...the day he has to leave to go back to work...21 days until he comes back home.
It doesn’t get any easier. The way I approach it has changed...but easier NO! This time was particularly sad because I was fortunate enough to spend the entire 10 days with him...we were apart maybe as long as a hour this entire time while I went to the gym...other than that I got to be with him.
I make sure I don’t cry...at least not in front of him. I make sure to stay positive...no sadness in the air while we are together.
In the shower this morning...as I bathed him...I didn’t want to stop...i made sure to mentally take a picture of every inch of him. I made sure I listened to his heart beat just a little longer last night. I made sure to look at his eyes and his lips a little longer this morning.
And even though this is the most dreaded day for us both...we both make each other smile...try not to make an emotional mess out of the last moments we have.
I made it through most of the day without any tears. I will say that the drive away from the airport always has tears flowing....but I was able to gain composure by the time I was back home. No more tears during the day...thankfully I have been busy with Thanksgiving prep and job stuff....but on our nightly call he sweetly tells me he hung one of his shirts in my closet...an undershirt. He tells me he knows how much I loved the first shirt he left for me....so he left a new one that’s fresh with his scent for me....tears (just the kind that come out and roll down your face without even trying).
So now I sit here writing this blog...with his pillows all around me and his shirt in my lap...and tears are steady flowing. It’s only been 11 hours or so...and I miss
Him so....I’m thankful for the many pictures and videos I have of him...and yes I look at them all...many many times until he comes back to me.
Love is a powerful thing....I’m blessed to Love and be loved by him. I am strong and so is he...it’s just another 20 days...we get stronger together every time.
Until tomorrow...
