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Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

I'm a owned and collared. The journey I have been on with Daddy is amazing...and only gets better! This is my daily entries of what is going on in my head and stories of all the things I’m learning with Daddy!
6 years ago. November 22, 2018 at 7:12 AM

Day 1 after D Day still hasn’t gotten any easier. It’s so hard adjusting to the change in the amount of contact I get to have with him. It’s almost a shock to the system...like an addict being denied their drug.

 


I remember last time I lost my mind a little and slipped into that dark place of doubt. I just kept thinking today how he reacted to my doubt last time...and that kept me acting right today! It also helped me that today was a busy day...and being with family for the holiday is helping to keep my mind going. But I still have him on my mind no matter what I am doing.

 


I really had to concentrate on not going down that depression road when I didn’t get to talk to him first this morning. For his voice to be the first I hear. I think I did pretty well considering!!! I’m also feeling extremely bad about not being there for him during the holiday...I know there is nothing I can do about it...but it still doesn’t change the fact that I feel bad or guilty or sad about it...it almost feels like I shouldn’t be able to enjoy it without him.

 


It’s tough...you can even see the stress in my body! My face has a pimple!! WTF??? I don’t get pimples!!! I’m way over that stage of life!!! But there it is staring back at me in the mirror...telling me “see...look at your ugly face!! I bet he’s glad he doesn’t have to see this” Those damn ugly doubt demons try and surface wherever they can...ugh....

 


Here’s to getting on to day 2....I want the time to pass faster...19 to go...

 


Until tomorrow....

sweetd0428​(sub female) - Awww sorry hon. Huge bear hugs. It's hard to say goodbye and have to wait especially during the holidays.
But instead write each day in your Caesar a happy thought of the2 of you and do this as an advent calendar until the day he is to come back. You will smileat the fond memories and it'll feel like he's there with you and you'll find your mind in a more positive state.
Be happy you two connect so well and know he's thinking of you as well.
And a pimple is a simple little blemish that with an alcohol pad or a dab of acne medicine will go away and cab be hide easily with a dab of concealer. Hell I'm 38 & still get 1 every so often too. No one is perfect but you're a beautiful soul and have a man you cherish....nothing else should matter
Happy Thanksgiving and remember he will be back !
Hugs
Deb
6 years ago
Firecracker​(sub female)​{Collared} - Happy Thanksgiving! Thank you...I’m going to take that advice!
6 years ago
Sensual City Girl​{ForeverHIS} - Firecracker, I just want to reach thru and hug you!! I can feel your sadness as I read this blog, more so than other times. I know to well that distractions are temporary and we still miss our Sir/Daddy no matter how hard we try. No reason to feel guilty, he knows you would rather be with him. Try to enjoy your family as I will. You’ll get to talk to him soon. Don’t worry about not having him, think about what you have now with him and what you’ve shared and when he gets back. ❤️ ?

And, a pimple?? I’ve been breaking out like a teenager for the last week. Seriously??!!! I had the same thought as you glad he can’t see me, but he will in 4 hours day. So, I’ve been calming myself and focusing on the good and what’s ahead. Mindshift helps tremendously. Don’t let those demons surface. Your sir loves you and you’ll be together again soon.

Happy Thanksgiving ???
6 years ago
Firecracker​(sub female)​{Collared} - Happy Thanksgiving! Your right...it’s all temporary...and even though I prepared better it still hit me like a ton of bricks. Each passing day is one day closer to having him back!!
6 years ago

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