The days are counting down...and I’m starting to feel the countdown to him coming home! I miss him so much...
I had a bad dream last night...it was one of those dreams that manifested from a conversation where I took something that was said (nothing horrible) but my lonely brain changed it into something it wasn’t. I worried about it instead of talking to him about it...because my sane brain kept telling my crazy brain it was ridiculous and to stop...so why bring up something that was a no issue and I knew?!?!? But the worry brain still worried about it...which in turn made me have a nightmare. This could have also been cold medicine induced...but still. When Master called me first thing this morning...I guess he could hear it in my voice...he asked and I didn’t tell him...when he called again a little later he asked again...I knew I had to tell him...so I explained as I have on here why I didn’t bring it up...and he simply said...well they me anyway so I can confirm that you have nothing to worry about. Problem solved....I am always amazed how he can read me like no one else...even just through a phone call. He can calm my mind like no one else...and I know that I need to talk to him when about everything...but have you ever known that your having unrealistic thoughts or emotions...and the more you try to urge them away...the more you think about it!! Ugh...
Anyway...on a happy note....We have scored us an invite to a private BDSM club! I’m so excited!! I have never been to anything like this...and can’t wait to actually meet like minded people! My imagination is already in overdrive!!! I will be with my Master...proudly his Submissive!! It will be one hell of a birthday this year!!
Until tomorrow...
