Finally to day 10!! Half way there!! Finally to that mark of being able to count down just 10 more days until he is home...
Some thoughts from today...
Throughout my life I’ve encountered different types of relationships...some good and some not so good...but those helped define who I am today. I can reflect at how I used to be...and be happy with where I am personally at this very moment. I’m not bitter about my life lessons from past relationships...because I’ve always had the philosophy that everything is a lesson...it’s all up to you on whether you listen and learn and turn it into something beneficial for you life...or let it become an excuse for why you are not happy.
I’ve always been a very non-drama person. I don’t like to fight...I don’t like to argue...I know now it’s because at my core I’m submissive and just want to please. I don’t understand how or why anyone would continue to subject themselves to uncomfortable drama when it torments your soul. I truly don’t know why everyone doesn’t want to be happy and enjoy the moments all the time...and if you can’t do that where you’re at...then take steps away from the situation until you can!!
I know I’ve been told that I live in a lala land of pansies and poseys...and I say why not!! It’s my life...why not make it the happiest you can. But with that said...that doesn’t mean for one second that I don’t have a standard or a line that won’t be crossed. I have a very unique ability to cut off all emotions for you like a light switch if you cross that line.
I think everyone should love their “one” freely and fiercely. You should be passionate about each other in all aspects of life. You both should feel confident in the trust you build together and be clear with each other on expectations and where each other’s line is. You should be confident in the words you speak to each other...and promise to always be honest...even when you know that it might not be what the other wants to hear. Have constant communication...and express what you need and want...even when it might be ridiculous!
Be honest with yourself and make the decisions you need to make that make your life better. Sometimes that’s not what someone else’s wants...but you have one life...LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST!!
Until tomorrow...
