Firecracker(sub female){Collared}

Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

I'm a owned and collared. The journey I have been on with Daddy is amazing...and only gets better! This is my daily entries of what is going on in my head and stories of all the things I’m learning with Daddy!

Away Day 2 - one foot in front of the other

6 years ago. December 23, 2018 at 6:14 AM

Day 2 is still not easier...but it wasn’t as horrible.

I’m still feeling lost...not really even knowing what I’m doing throughout the day. Currently I’m surrounded by family...without even a moment alone...and even though I enjoy the time with them...I’m constantly thinking of him. Wanting to be with him....to be in our world together.

Is it sad that I would rather be with him than with anyone else. Does that make me a horrible person? Maybe...but the way I see it is that I love a whole lot of people....my mother, my son, my grandchildren....but I am a part of their lives and they are apart of mine...but I feel like he is my life. I would never trade any of them for anything...but being with him is food for my soul and the only way my life is complete and functioning.

My need to submit and give to him is insatiable. All of me...my body and mind. I want to serve his every need...his everything. Even at my strongest...I want to give it all to him. Knowing that I will be with him soon helps to keep me putting one foot in front of the other.

Soon my love...soon

Until tomorrow....

HuntertheYeenQueen(dom femme){Allie Kat} - You're definitely not a horrible person for this. I'm the same way- I want to be with my husband, my submissive, 24/7. When we have to be apart, which sadly is often because of his work, I kinda wander around in a zombie-like state for several days after he is gone. I get over it, but it takes a while. Before we got married we were an LDR and only had a couple of weeks every several months together. I would be depressed for the first few weeks after I got home and it drove my family crazy. Even now, we had to cancel plans to go home for Christmas, but he originally wanted me to still go home and see my family. I told him I couldn't because I would be so miserable without him that I wouldn't enjoy my time and my family would hate it too. I just... dont do well without him.

I dont /accept/ it though. I've gotten way better about getting over myself when he has to go somewhere for work. It's easier. But it still sucks like hell.

Chin up - your time apart is almost over. You've got this. :)

6 years ago

Sensual City Girl{ForeverHIS} - You are not a horrible person for loving him as much as you do!!

You got this, one foot in front of the other. Hugs!!’

6 years ago

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Firecracker​(sub female)​{Collared}

Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

Away Day 2 - one foot in front of the other

Firecracker(sub female){Collared}