Watching the movie "EatPrayLove "movie tonight. Sometimes words of a quote of a movie can just be impactful to a moment, a situation ,to even life.
"In the end, I’ve come to believe in something I call the ‘Physics of the Quest’, a force in nature governed by the laws of gravity. The rules of quest physics goes something like this: If you’re brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting and set out on a truth seeking journey either internally or externally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue,and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared most of all to face and forgive some of the most difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be witheld from you."
So many thoughts on this. Because on my journey I have had so many stumbles so many going backwards shutting down. Trying to reach past the complacency disconnecting from things real life and on this platform . just feeling like I'm on cruise control .
It is depressing and frustrating and I know I am the one at the helm steering my journey .
Yes I read learn pray meditate that is a everyday task for myself.
The complacency comes from a learned behavior. To again compartmentalize it reared its ugly head when my mom passed in Dec.
And everything got locked back up again . sure my demons loved playing with the shut off and stuffed emotions.
Ugh to just have some release cry in the shower because to do so in front of anyone is well as I was raised not aloud .
So if I'm distant don't message soon or am just existing .
I am working some stuff out .
I am trying .
