A title can really captivate an audience so now that I’ve got your attention...hehe..
Coming up on 1 year being single. I’ve had a few vanilla dates, some online D/s dabbling...An immeasurable amount of masterbation.
I’m 32, free-spirited, open-minded and have always been afraid of heights..but not when it comes to my standards. Haha.
I want love, passion....a sweet and *magical* power exchange dynamic..with the right man.
I don’t open up normally about sex, feelings, desires..there are several layers to me that protect my very precious and submissive core.
..I also don’t want to be married. The thought of sex with one person, for. The. Rest. Of. My. Life....honestly..makes me sad...And honestly... makes me sad that I feel that way.
I’m unconventional, a dreamer, a hard worker, and always, always evolving.
My family, my friends, and my co-workers are basically all married or in monogamous relationships. I listen and lend a laugh when they complain about their significant other. They listen, and lend a laugh when I complain about my lack there of. It’s polite, it’s fake...we know we are making each other feel comfortable about our differences. But what I want is a real conversation.
I truly am very happy for the people in my life that I am different from. I mean, they have something that fulfills them and makes them happy. It is what I want too, only it looks a little different. Also, I’m very satisfied and happy with myself in the meantime. I own my own home, I’m providing for my family. I’m not egotistical, I’m proud! I see a lot of friends dating, then getting married but what I don’t see is passion..and at times, To those very people, i feel like I need to explain, validate or reassure that Im ok (being single). I think I realize we just have different values, and I’m good with that. It’s ok to wait. It’s ok to experience. It’s ok to say no, again and again. It’s ok to be exactly who I am. And it’s great to finally understand that. 😊