Looking back on memories from just one year ago can sometimes take my breath away. It’s amazing how one small choice can instantaneously change the course of your life, your families’ future... perhaps even your outlook on life and who you are.
For as long as I can remember, I have had a recurring dream about walking up a seemingly never ending stairway. Sometimes I am walking with friends, as we continue up, they always pass me by, my legs grow tired, I cannot keep up. Other times I am walking alone, I get distracted. Even at times I am on my hands and knees, crawling step by step fighting with all that’s in me to get to the next level.
It can be so difficult to feel satisfied with where you are at in life. The status or respect that may possibly be awaiting you if you just push yourself a little further, even if that means pushing beyond your capacity.
I used to to believe that a relationship I was in would help me reach where I needed to be. That final step to the stairway. I thought I could be empowered by it. I now realize just how wrong I was. In order to become “empowered”, I must originally have no power, it must be given to me. I took the power. I ended the relationship exactly one year ago. I haven’t had a stairway dream since. I am powerful, by myself. Funny how it took breaking away from what I thought I wanted to figure out I already have exactly what I need.
