I'm going to backtrack a little and explain why I even found this lifestyle.
Like a lot of people, 50 Shades was the initial spark/touch/taste for me. But it didn't stop there for me.
Don't get me wrong, according to standards I'm still very "vanilla." And 50 Shades are still my second favorite book series of all time. That I've read too many times to keep track of.
Since then I've sought out more novels, all varying in intensity and levels of Dominance. Mentally I tried to play it off as just a sexual curiosity. An itch that needed to be scratched, experienced and then discarded as "not for me."
I'm a mature, independent, self controlled, respectable woman. I'm a mother to five amazing children. And in no way will I let a Man rule over me, about anything. Because we are equals, damn it!
Oh how wrong I was ...
First I had to go thru a divorce and nasty divorce issues, etc. Before the divorce I realized that I had no clue who I was anymore. I had to go on a personal journey of self discovery. I found her, I fell in love with her and I'm not letting her get lost again. She's beautiful and magical. She's what boys chase and what men try to claim.
A few men layed claim to her but could never capture her entirely. She doesn't have time for boys. For a long time she thought something was wrong with her. She kept looking and searching. She kept putting herself out there, placing her heart in hands that she thought were capable.
But what I didn't know was ...
