Woo! Im officially off pills! 1 injection once a week from now on! 😁
It will go a long way making me not feel the effects of my birth defect as much. I will be more balanced and less to remember! Very excited to see how it goes!
Im not! 😒 why are you looking at me like that? I am the sweetest, most lovable obedient sub who ever bottomed! My wife keeps saying im a brat but i don't see it... i just want attention... i don't care if you are playing games or trying to read... or play on your phone... i need to cuddle in your lap right now. thats all!
Anyway, thanks for reading, i just realized pictures are premium now so... guess you will have to imagine 😘
Hello E/everyone ^^ i have some updates for anyone who is interested or who has been following me before.
Sorry i haven't been around as much! Work is, just... insane... im talking 12hr shift minimum, 16 hr shift regular, 6 days a week and sometimes with no days off at all... its... just terrible. But this isn't a complain about work session!
So recently, i have gotten some very strong indicators, and after several months of questioning and exploring, i am 90% certain that i am trans MtF. The only thing im holding out on, is i would like a licensed professional to help guide me to (or away from i suppose) that conclusion. It has been wonderful finally being confident enough to go out in public how i would like to be and it has been quite an experience and a journey.
Anyway! Here are some pictures for you ^^
Hello E/everyone! My new stitch fix finally came in! I have to say, i was much happier with this one than the last one. They really picked out some great things for me! As promised, i have shared them here with you ^.^ please tell me what you think!
This is a neet "dress" (shirt) that DF bought me ^.^ i think it looks nice if i wear the leggings haha
Here are some cute booties i got in my Fix ^.^ i think they look good with the shirt :)
A new dress i got in the fix! I love it 💜 please ignore my silly phone in the picture XP
I also got this green shirt, i love the back so much ^.^
This shirt is sooo cute 💜
Last, i got this shirt! I usually loce all tie-up shirts for some reason haha
So what do you guys think? Are there any that you liked best? What are winners and what should be left behind?
As always, i hope you are all staying safe while the Backstreet Boys reunion tour is going on. Love you all!
Hello again everyone! You guys have been so wonderful, helpful and supportive in my quest to find my look and reinvent my wardrobe <3 So i have some new pictures for you guys!
My friend has a fasion degree and she put together a bundle of clothes that she thought i might look good in 😄 i tried them on and modeled them for you here. What are your thoughts?
First, a few dresses
I really like this one, but i may have to find some pasties! Haha not sure it fits my skin or body type though. What do you guys think? What should i pair it with?
Next a little black dress
Lastly, i don't usually do floral print, but i thought this was nice :)
Ok! Now for some shirts!
I dunno how i feel about this first one, i don't usually wear midriff shirts o//o
I felt like this one needs something under it, and maybe over it too! Haha what would you guys pair it with?
Idk why, but i felt super cute in this one ^//^
I think my friend (who is super obsessed with sequins) is trying to get me into sequins now haha
Just a nice red shirt :)
And now a few skirts!
I really like this one :)
Again, i don't usually do floral haha but...
Im not really an animal print type person either o.o
Lastly, the infamous bathing suit she made me try on.
There may be a little bit of tucking action going on in this one o//o
Ok! So what do you guys think? Whats hot and what's not? I need your help and i appreciate your guys' feedback! Any outfit pairings for these pieces will be appreciated too 😄 thanks! Hope you are all enjoying a Covid-free quarenteen!
Hello E/everyone! I finally got my stitch fix box! As promised, here is pictures of what i got. I would love your opinions!
So i wasn't sure about this first one, but i think its growing on me. Looks a bit masculine for my taste though i think haha
I liked this shirt (its super comfy) and the stripes but i don't think im a huge fan of the color :T
This one is my favorite, the only thing from this fix i think im gonna buy haha
Consider this last one just a thank you for reading my silly blog 😜 i was just feeling really cute with all my colors and my new shirt haha
Thank you all for your support ^.^ i look forward to more stitch fix boxes and posting more updates. Let me know what you guys think in the comments! What was your favorite? Hope your day is going great! 💜
Hello everyone, i decided to write this partially as a self therapeutic measure and maybe some people can relate and will feel some solidarity in reading this.
So i don't know what to call it, im not trans, but i desperately want to be indistinguishable from a woman (im male btw). I work hard on makeup, outfits and self-care. Basically i would love to be a "trap" but without any desire to actually trap anyone haha.
Well today, i took a pretty big mental hit. My wife surprised me and bought me two new dresses today! I was very excited to try them on even though i am always very worried about how my (moderately attractive) male form will look in a dress clearly made to accentuate the female form.
I tried the first one (my favortie of the two) on. I couldn't zip it because of my shoulders. I felt embarassed and masculine. I set that aside and decided to try the other. That one fits. I was a little releieved. I looked at myself in the mirror and i saw what i am always afraid to see. Instead of feminine and cute, i saw the awkward frame of a man wearing a dress. My shoulders were really apparent and there was lose fabric on my chest (for obvious reasons). I was disheartened, but i pressed on. I decided to do my makeup and nails. I was happy because i think i am still improving and i used no makeup tutorials to help me this time. Indecided to gather all my courage to get my picture taken, originally planning to show it here.
Sadly, i saw the same awkward look in the picture as i did in the mirror... i wanted to cry. I felt hopelessly masculin, and all my other insecurites hit me at once. I worry that i will never be as cute as i want, that all my diet and exercise is futile, that im getting old and i will never be pretty... I actually took a depression nap soon after.
It took me a while, but i started to see things normal again. I removed the dress and put on my favorite night shirt. I started talking to friends and i began to feel like myself again. Im not giving up, i do need to accept that i may never fit the image that i have in my head, but that i can still be happy. The most important thing in life isn't looking good in dresses, doing cute makeup or having gorgeous hair. The most important thing are the friends we have and the people we help. I will enjoy what i can and do the best i can to accept the things i can not change. Thank you for anyone who listened to/read through this. I hope you are loving yourself and others 💜
Happy Holidays to E/everyone reading this ^.^ i hope you are all having a blessed season and that you feel loved! My wife got me this new dress for Christmas and i love it. I also re-did my advent nails and put on makeup for her. What do you guys think? How was your Christmas? What did you guys get ot give that you loved?
Oh! Also we gave our puppy this gigantic bone that was way too big for her haha, but she seemed happy :p
Today i am helping my wife make gingerbread cookies! I love baking and its such a fun Christmasy thing to do! So of course i took a shower and got myself ready. This is my gingerbread cookie baking look! What do you guys think? I hope you are all having a great holiday season whichever you are celebrating ^.^ i think i am getting better at my makeup. I hope i have a nice wig and a larger wardrobe soon ^.^
Hello E/everyone! It's Christmas time! My wife and i spent the day decorating and i decided to do this winter inspired look ^.^ what do you guys think?
We made hot coco, put up the tree, then watched Christmas Vacation haha it was a nice day. We also got some Christmas cookie scented candles!
What are some of your guy's Christmas traditions? ^.^
