I feel like I don't fit.
Not here.
Not anywhere.
I have desires.
Fantasies.
I don't know how to get them fulfilled.
It's not because there aren’t men around.
I want to feel attraction and desire.
I want to feel wanted.
Like a woman you need.
I want to be a needed.
Not simply a hole you can fill.
I am lonely.
In my bones lonely.
I can feel me giving up hope of ever having the kind of deep connection, care, and trust I crave.
I may have to settle for sex.
I want to want you.
To reach out with trembling fingers and trace your taunt and muscular chest, abdomen then lower...
Until my hand reaches your manhood and I have the courage to hold you, firm.
I want to want to get on my knees for you.
To put you in my mouth and make you shiver.
I want to lick you.
Stroke you.
Suck you with my mouth while fondling your sac with my feather-light touch.
I want you to want my so badly
You fuck my face.
Forcing my head back...
As drops of your sweet pre-semen seeps from the corner of my mouth.
You pull me up off of my knees and and sit me on your lap as you enter my wet, hot pussy...
hungry...
..for you.
I wrap my legs around your waist as your strong hands palm my ass and you fill me with you.
It's too much.
It’s too good.
You're too much.
Too good.
I try to move but you hold me in place.
You start to whisper to me.
Dark secrets I can't even write.
You lay me on the bed and you soften.
Something in you changed.
Desire has melted into care.
I see you bathe me.
Tend to my body.
Touch me soft.
And I cry.
06/07/21