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Learning to be Myself

Here is my journey -- from learning to suppress my personality and desires because of the circumstances and environment I grew up in-- to me learning to letting go of the bias, standing up on my own and learning in baby steps TO BE MYSELF... :)
3 years ago. November 6, 2020 at 8:32 PM

First..... And probably, the last.

So, it was a sudden turn of events. Sir DaddE talked to me, shared with me about himself and ma'am, told me to give a chance to be their sub/slave. We talked about it in depth and he sated many of my fears.

For instance, someone had told me that being turned on by calling you dom daddy means you have sexual desires for your father. That was quite a ewww thought because I respect my dad immensely. Sir cleared to me that that is absolutely not true and explained it as well.

He cleared a lot many of my fears (also, secretly, they both look very cute together). So, I chose to give it a go. We had decided to give it a go online at first, since they live half world away from me. Sir gave me tasks, both sexual and otherwise, and I had SO MUCH FUN doing them all. It was both a turn on and enjoyable.

Although, by the end of 24 hrs it was clear to me that I might be a sub (that's for sure now lol) but I'm definitely not made for online domination (that's also sure). It made me uncomfortable, uncertain and very insecure.

Sadly, around the same time, maam realised that she isn't very comfortable with polys and sir and ma'am decided to talk it out. I wish them both good luck in sorting this out and finding their perfect missing piece.

And I learned that I don't have daddy issues, I don't like online domination and I don't like sharing XD

It was a nice experience all things considered.

Thankyou Sir DaddE and best wishes to you.

Xo

DomxJ - Is it your own experience?
2 years ago
DomxJ - ?
2 years ago
AbysFLife​(sub female) - Yes it is. ^-^
2 years ago
DomxJ - Are you @ fetlife?
2 years ago
AbysFLife​(sub female) - No... Only and only on cage.
2 years ago
DomxJ - Okay
2 years ago
DomxJ - What are you looking forward with this lifestyle in future?
2 years ago
AbysFLife​(sub female) - No idea... I would say I'm looking long term, but I haven't connected to anybody on that level yet... Casuals don't do it for me, I can't trust that fast. I've made quite a few friends. We'll see what life has in store for me. Thank you for asking. You're free to share your thoughts.
2 years ago
DomxJ - Thanks for sharing.
Currently my partner [sub] has gone abroad [Toronto] to study her master degree and thinking to settle there according to her professional life.
So I'm looking for a new partner for long term D/s dynamic and who don't want to relocate abroad because I don't have any plan to relocate in foreign .
2 years ago
AbysFLife​(sub female) - Ah I've experienced that once. I'm sorry to hear that.
2 years ago
DomxJ - It's okay.
I don't want to hamper her professional life due D/s dyanmic
2 years ago
DomxJ - She had done very hard work to achieve it, so she deserves it more, i think.
2 years ago
AbysFLife​(sub female) - That's very good to hear. You must be very proud. ^-^
2 years ago
DomxJ - Yup, definitely.
2 years ago
DomxJ - Btw, May I know your experience of D/s dynamic? Which things had you explored ?
Which has remained to explore?
2 years ago
DomxJ - Okay,I'll ping you there.
2 years ago
DomxJ - I pinged you there, please see it
2 years ago

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