Been an awfully long time since I last wrote something. My mum was sick and I was really busy caring for her. Ignored all my friends - though unintentionally - so sorry about that. But it's good to be back. This community never fails to amaze me with their acceptance of all and everybody regardless.
I don't know how many of you are knowledgeable about how Indian societies function but here's a fun fact:
If you're of marriageable age, your papa is retired and your mum gets seriously sick, then you're ready to married off. I know, sounds weird, but my mum felt like she should marry me off before her health worsens... So there's only so much arguing I can do.
After much talk, they've agreed to give me one year - at max, two years - to my own and then, it's going to be arranged. And now I'm left feeling like I'll never find a dom I'm comfy with or that I'll have to give up on the lifestyle altogether.
It's a very depressing thought. I want to get out of my own head and don't know what to do or how. I feel trapped between wanting to live my life and doing what my mum wishes. Neither choice is easy.
Sigh... Well putting it all down at least helped.
Thanks for hearing me out if you read till here.
Ciao~
