As I look back on my two experiences on this site I see the mistakes that I made very clear I take all my responsibilities to them. But I will not take all of the responsibilities, Just mine.
I’ve been told there is two side to every story. But that is not true there is three. His/hers and then the truth.
As I have talked about before I am a very boring person my life is simple. I get very nervous talking to people and then I babble like an good red blooded American girl.
But what I don’t get is when I read about Doms and tops. Is they are self confident and very strict with their lives. Which is their thing which is what subs or bottoms crave. And us bottoms are what tops crave because of our giving and submissiveness. As bottoms we are uncertain and question a lot especially if we are new I know I have a million insecurities and I’m finding out I am not alone on that. I also know that All of us need to be built up. It’s human nature to be told that you special pretty handsome. Or even that someone finds you attractive. But it is not my job to make you feel like a man. I can’t make you into something your not. Just as you can’t make me feel like a woman if I don’t act like one. I also know that my action are in the eye of the beholder. I also know I am sarcastic and a little bratty at times. It’s who I am.
I have not made a profile due to I need to learn how I fit in this lifestyle I will not take it lightly. Trusting someone to do half of things I have heard of on here seems dangerous exciting and turns me on beyond what I could have ever imagined. And I have a fantastic imagination that I know.
I guess what I don’t get is why in the first sentence of a message I get from people is “sarcasm here” “using my deep man voice” call me daddy baby girl”. Get out of dodge are you crazy really I’m just going to call you daddy what planet are you from. Plz help me understand this. Next is if I’m honest with you and tell you I have insecurities. Why is it so hard to just say it’s ok I’m still here. Joy I’m not going over it again. Hello if your given what you need then shut up and give the next person what they need.
so as I read this and my horrible grammar spelling and punctuation it looks like a question answer rant. But I have really found out I am not the only one feeling this way.
