So I am just trying to remember when I started to be interested in kink. In a way I think I was from quite an early age (I mean pre teens, not 3). I used to day dream about torturing someone in a sort of sexual way. Then if I was feeling a girls breasts (I'm older now) I'd have a desire to squeeze them really hard, stick my nails into them. I thought about holding something in my hand, like some nails or tacks.
By the way I think I can say all this. No one is offended so far? This is supposed to be a worts and all account, but also I am not a psychopath. I have never hurt a sole. I do not even like to kill spiders when I find them in the bath.
So it never bothered me that I had this stuff running around inside my head, even though I did not really understand what it was doing there, but I also did not do anything about it. I think that, before the shades of grey books, a lot of people just kept it to themselves. If you met someone in a pub you could not really ask to spank them. Although I was sort of vaguely looking on the internet, but kind of not very hard. Then about a year and a half, maybe as long as two years (I have kind of lost track) I just thought, I need to do it know or I will be too old, so I have been looking ever since then.
My "interests" are not all that unusual. I am dominant (and straight. For some reason I do get the accessional message from men) I have no interest in switching. (In five minutes I am going to have a shower so I will continue another day). Perhaps it is easier to start by saying what I do not like, Hard limits: Blood, scat. I insist on using safe words and condoms. Animals, children, anything that is not consensual, Um, I'm thinking. I prefer privacy and indoors, I might get into a group thing eventually but, to start with, just one on one. I am not entirely sure what it means but I have a feeling that a princess or baby girl would not be ideal for me. A brat, maybe if I could train them any way I wanted.
Its after midnight but I have not showered today, so, more another time. Thanks for reading and hope I did not go to far.