Sorry for the self pitty, it is just one of those days.
I suppose that the search for anything, never mind a submissive, masochist female, will all ways be both depressing and frustrating, if it constantly fails. I keep collecting reasons as to why I never get anywhere and they might all be accurate but in another way it all remains a mystery to me (Perhaps other people can see clearly what is causing my perpetual failure, but I can not see it).
In Buddhism the argument goes something like this: People suffer because they have desires, so if you desire nothing then you can not suffer. At the other extreme there is the idea: Stick at it for long enough, you are bound to find what you are looking for. In other words should I just give up.
By the way this is not a rant at anyone in particular. I am not the kind of man who gets angry with ladies because they won't have sex with me (I just get sad and self pitying).
I have just started reading "screw the roses, send me the thorns", so maybe that will give me the information that I am looking for. However I am a very slow reader. In the mean time I might try to wean my self of these sites. I might not, I might be back tomorrow as if nothing has been said.