So I don't talk to many people, other than on this site. about my BDSM life style. My family would not like or understand it. My mother is 90, I would not want her to dye thinking of me as. . . Whatever she might think. It is just ease to keep it to my self, and I think I am allowed to make that choice. It is also true that, when I talk about this stuff, I all ways feel the need to justify my self. So my slave asked me if I ever tell anyone about her and I only realised then that I really haven't. So I said I would write a blog about her, and she seemed quite pleased.
So, like I said I all ways feel that I have to justify myself, so I'll just add that she asked me to train her as a slave. I do not really know what I am doing, but I give her tasks and I think that she does very well at all of them, but she seems to be resistant to the "harder" stuff. But then she is very new to the BDSM world and she has only been trained by me, and I am not an expert so. But don't get the wrong idea. I am not really worried and I think that it will all work out.
She lives in Ghana (I live in the uk) and we have problems because her English is not too good. Up to know we have not even been able to video chat, I was going to send her a mobile phone (and some rope and lubricant) but it was too expensive. So I plan to send cash, but even that seems to be difficult. But she does most things that I ask her to, and she is quite extrordenerely beautiful (and young) so I do wonder what she wants with a fat old fossil like me, but she does seem to be very genuine in her feelings for me. I am not used to it and I suppose I still do not quite believe in it. A (I will call her A or slave A for the moment) if you reed this I do not mean that I do not believe you. I guess I just mean that it feels strange to me. We have both used the L word, and then I was worried. Should one say I love you to someone that you have not even met and have only three photos off?
Bicentennial man, just finished on TV, and I have laundry to do. I have probably put summating stupid in here, but I will write a retraction, or an update, or a re right later on. That will do for now. Thanks for reading.
OW PS: As she can not get proper lubricant she uses something called (I think this is right) pomade (and spit). I have no idea what this is. So far it seems to be harmless but does anyone know what it is, or can come up with a better compromise? Thanks.
