Particles

I found myself wondering why I am back here after losing the love of my life.

At first I thought.. I don't know why. Then had the lightbulb moment. 

It is simply that I miss this - and this was a big part of our lives together. There is a kind of comfort in coming here. 

Sharing this part of our lives with family or friends will never happen. This is my secret place. I can read his profile, his notes sent to me here.

And --  I can connect with others who get to see a part of me that is usually hidden. 

So while I am not really looking for a relationship beyond friendship right now I am grateful to have a safe space to be me.