I talked with a friend this morning about a mutual friend of ours. I realized for the first time I said something out loud that I had never really expressed. “Yes, I have a crush on them.” My friend enjoyed spending time with this person. I couldn’t be more than happier for her. At the same time a hint of jealousy came swooping in.
I met this person in 2019 at a local event. There was just something about him. I just started to crush hard on him. He was beyond nice to me and so caring. He was cute on top of that. How could I not like him?
When my Dom and I broke up he was there for me as a friend should. Along with my other friends. He has always been there when I needed a friend. He still is there for me. Would he still be there if he knew I had a crush on him?
When my friend told me what a wonderful time she had at this event with him. I was happy. Then I just wished to a point it was me. When my friend asked how I felt about him, I told her. I also stated I knew nothing would ever happen.
For starters I am monogamous and he is poly. That is the biggest difference right there. Don’t think I haven’t thought about poly. Some of his likes are different from mine. They wouldn’t always mesh. Who says opposites don’t attract right?
You may be thinking why don’t I just tell him? I have made side comments as “I don’t like you like that” after he had shared some of his feelings towards me. The thing is, I am crushing on him and hard. I know deep down it would never work. It doesn’t mean I can’t have a crush on this person. Right?!?
