Lost

I found who I thought was the one, but I ran. He promised me everything I needed, craved, and desired. But when we met, it wasn't what I needed, and then grew distant, and because I prefer everyone to be vocal I panicked and ran. 

Now I have yet to find someone I'm attracted to and that gives me the excitement I need. With my life and schedule it's hard to even find time. 

I just dont even understand myself, these needs, my cravings, and desires.