Dancing in darkness and solitude

It's a very surreal feeling when you break a trigger and it not longer affects you. And when you can step back in the face of repeated cycles and not get caught up in them, not get weighed down by them. Not allow yourself to get drawn in or react to emotional baiting. In a way it's actually a little scary, the eery calm and emotional detachment to something that before literally made your entire world quiver and shake and your very breath freeze in your lungs. It's a little sad, and still emotionally draining, but to realize that the hold is no longer there, that the power has shifted and how much I have grown. It is indeed surreal. Moving past things and letting go to cleanse the soul, definitely time to move on from this.