I lay here in bed scarcely able to breathe because my heart is so full.
I came to this site to find a Dom, a man who could handle a submissive woman and be trusted to handle me. Someone who could fulfill my VERY un-vanilla needs, in the bedroom and out. I thought I knew what I wanted, what I needed. A big bad hard nosed Dom who would bark orders and be an asshat. (I guess that’s the self deprecating masochist in me) I found a few of those, most of them very firm but very kind. Only one real asshat who attempted to cause trouble by messaging Daddy after we publicly announced. But in the midst of things, I got that message from Daddy. I knew I had to meet him (you can read the previous blogs) immediately. There wasn’t enough hesitation in the world to keep me from meeting him that day. Looking back, I could see the firmness (I still can) in his very intense eyes but there wasn’t a big bad dom there (Sorry Daddy) He’s intense and I have no doubt he could be fierce (those eyes and hands) if he needed to be, but he’s the kindest, hardest, softest, human being I have ever met. I have never met someone I trust in, the way I trust in him. I’ve never met a man that I felt was more capable than me of taking care of things. I’ve never met a man that I willingly let ALL control go and completely submit to. Happily. I’ve never felt emotions and love this intense and I still get overwhelmed with nothing but gratitude and love for this man who has given me such a gift. Everyone talks about submitting being a gift and I get that, but what a gift to give someone to fully dominate and take care of them and allow someone to fully let go of everything and trust. His gift is priceless and not something to squander or take with carelessness. I only accept his gift with gratitude and honor. To honor him in every way that I can, physically, emotionally, lovingly, and all. I came here thinking I knew what I wanted, he gave me what I NEEDED.
P.S. I still get what I wanted in bed 😈
