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I’m laying in bed and trying my best to sleep. You are running through my head, eleventy billion different thoughts. The constant one is that I love you and I can’t stand being away from you right now. The week is hard without you. Even though you spoil me obscenely with the calls and texts and video chats. If you didn’t, I don’t have a clue how I would survive. It’s you Sir, it’s always you. Its you when I’m running errands, its you when I’m at work, it’s you when I’m laying in bed at night. My heart, my soul, my thoughts, my actions, they are all with you. Whether you are here physically or not, I always keep you in mind as Im making a decision. From taking “that” position at work, that I pretty immediately declined because I knew you’d be uncomfortable with it, and rightly so, my job has potential to have some dangerous elements to it. You just tend to forget that I’m a big girl, lol, I’m only little when I’m with you. You have unfortunately seen me at low points and in hysterics (my family is horrible, that’s been established), you’ve seen me at my shyest, you’ve seen me at my bubbliest, and most importantly you’ve seen the intense deep admiration and love when I look at you. You read where I wrote that you have been healing for me. I mean it with every fiber of my being. I’m just a broken person who I didn’t think I would ever feel this way again. I believe in it all again, because of you. My only goal is to make sure you feel as loved as you make me feel. You are so strong, and I am so hypnotized when I am around you. With you Daddy, my world is magical again. From the Mermaids, Unicorns, Fairies, and never ending Rainbows, and most importantly, YOU.