My Journey Into Me

Over the past few months I have been giving things a lot of consideration. Especially when it involves me. I find myself looking through the past few years and noticing that I've changed and not in a good way. I went from being the sweet and carefree me to being a sarcastic and blunt bitch. I know what I am, why not admit it. I hate it, I miss the old me. The one who had her heart on her sleeve, even though it hurts like hell when people hurt it. The one who smiled even when the world around wasn't giving me anything to smile about. I miss the headstrong woman who wasn't afraid to say what she thought and to hell with the consequences. That was me. In a nutshell I was the woman who cared for others, even when the world gave me every reason not to. I was the woman who smiled no matter how bleak the days were, simply because if I didn't who would? I was the woman with a mind of her own who was never afraid to be herself, no matter how hard she was hit, or how much she was yelled at. I miss that me, and I'm tired of being someone I am not. I am tired of being this angry person, who is constantly waiting for something else to go wrong. I am done being the version that the world wants me to be. Is it going to be easy? Hell no. But it'll be worth it and so much more. One step at a time. I will be the me I want to be, not the me that the world is determined to make me. Have a good day y'all! I know I am. Stay safe!