The Chimera's Whispers

G-Guys...
I'm actually quivering!  My Dom is on his way here. HERE!!!! WHERE I AM!
We'll be face to face in just a few more hours.

 

I'm so nervous and excited!  I can almost FEEL the static in the air.
I have tingles.
He's already in my state! He's about 5 hours away from me on the other side, passing through another airport for a connection flight. 

Oh man, this is happening. It's really happening!  It's not me dreaming.  

I can't help but feel a little anxious too, being a bit heavier set - I worry I might not be attractive physically. But, I'm not gonna let those insecurities rattle me. I can't.  I'm too excited for one. And for two? I GOT TOO MUCH STUFF TO DO YET!

Now if y'all will excuuuuuuse me~
I got a shower to take, and a last load of laundry to move to the drier.

Bwehe~

 

             I still can't believe he's almost here... Squee~

Inktober Prompt "Build" 

One of which I feel a lot of people might be able to relate to and this one was a very simple but I felt powerful concept.

 

You have to build trust, you have to build a relationship with someone else. In any kind of relationship; be it vanilla or within the lifestyle, a lot like how a kid might build with Legos.

 

It takes time,patience, effort, planning, even a little skill, and it may even seem tedious.

But man.

Building it is all part of the fun, isn't it???

 

Enjoy!~

 

Another prompt for Inktober.

 

Part of this challenge to myself is to try new things, break out of my normal tendencies.

This technique did not come out how I wanted it.

I don't much like this piece, but, it's all a learning process. Plus, I might not like it--- someone else might.

 

 

So, enjoy~

 

Inktober prompt was "Bait"

Trying to break out of my usual style and go into alternative things, methods, and techniques. 

 

Trying to break out of my normal tendencies. 

 

 

 

during the month of October there's an art challenge I've wanted to partake in for a few years called Inktober.

Every day for the month of October is a single word prompt artists draw on.

I finally decided I'd participate, I'm running a little bit behind. I couldn't get the supplies I wanted until a few days later.

 

Also posting a bit out of order. But, I figured it would be good to be a bit more active as well. I always have a difficult time trying to figure out what to post.

This prompt was called "Mindless"

 

 

 

Stick around for more Prompts

 

 

 

 

 

Some sketches for tonight~ New character of mine in the works.
Awww yesssss.

For those of you who might roll your eyes while you read through blogs and go "Ugh, another sub gushing about her Dom..."

Yeah... This blog post is going to be one of THOSE mushy, sentimental posts. So you might wanna duck out before you get on board the feels-train.

I think sometimes we get so stuck up, hung up, caught up, wrapped up, and bound up -- (Haaaaa! Pun intended!) on what roles we should take/be in that we often times forget that sometimes even the simplest acts of love/kindness can mean so much and be precisely what we need.
Both giving and receiving.

It's like glue -- I'll come back to this later though.

...I lost my cat last Sunday. I held her until the very end, I kept her gently against my chest until her final breath and final heartbeat.
It's very bittersweet, and I knew the time was coming. I just wish it hadn't been so soon.
She was 20 years old. So I mean, she truly did have a full and happy life filled with love. I've been having issues coping with the fact that she's gone.

What surprised me, and still surprises me; was that my Dom- despite the distance- stayed with me as best he could the entire time. Throughout my meltdowns, crying, ranting, babbling, and the coping. He was right there. He still is "right here" to a degree, sweetly snoring in my ears. (I think it's cute. Though I am fairly certain my assend is going to be on fire later when he reads this.♥)

 

The first night I lost my cat, I begged him to sleep with me as opposed to staying awake all night to watch over me on a Discord call to make sure I'd be okay. I explained to him that him resting would make me much happier than potentially hurting or wearing himself out by staying up on the call while I slept.

 

  I've always faced issues alone. (When I say this, I mean I've had my family as a support system always, which I'm thankful for. But, never had someone as a friend, a lover, a boyfriend, or a partner stay beside me like so.) Maybe that just shows just how messed up my previous "relationshits" were - but he didn't have to do that. Not at all. Many of my close friends just apologized for my loss and carried about their own devices.
I didn't ask him to stay with me through the maelstrom of grief and emotions. He did it on his own; it was his choice.

I... I am still somewhat taken a back by it, and with it. I realize that we sometimes just get so set in what 'roles' we place ourselves in. Not just as a Dom/sub, Master/slave, Owner/pet, Daddy/little, etc... But in our day to day lives too. Husband/Wife, Manager/Employee, Driver/Pedestrian, Parent/child- etc.
We forget that sometimes it really is the smaller acts of love and kindness that can really make all of the difference. Not just in the act of aftercare either. But, I mean in general. Caring about someone else genuinely.

 

The level of empathy, care, and compassion my Dom displayed this passing week has really reaffirmed just how fortunate I am to have the pleasure of meeting him; and being able to know him as a person. Be it as his submissive, his girlfriend, his friend, or even an acquaintance. It also makes me that much happier to give him my submission, and be his.

So my point of this blog post- is to show my adoration and quiet thanks to him. But, to also remind everyone that sometimes showing kindness to others, even in the smallest acts. Can have the biggest impact on another.

 

"But Auria..? What about the glue you mentioned earlier?"    -- Pfft- heheh... I knew you'd get stuck on that.

 

Until next time, Cage Dwellers.

~Chimera

--Not really. (joking)  But, did I snare your attention?
                                   Good.

 

I will say that this is more of a ranty-post and also open for discussion. I want your feedback, your opinions, etc.
Perhaps it's just a pattern I've noticed. Maybe it's just me?
I'm not certain... But, I feel like there's a bit of a double-standard.

 

 

You see, When a sub has "Protected" on their profile- that's one thing. (Which I don't overly feel like launching into right now.)
But now that I have "Considered" I haven't really had any issues with random Doms trying to slide up into my DMs anymore. In fact... It's quite opposite.

The double-standard I keep seeing is that subs just... Don't seem to care? --Lemme explain.

 

When a Dom looks at a sub's profile. They might see that "Considered" tag or someone's name, or "Taken", etc. and simply move on.
Lest they step on another Dom's toes. Usually; a Dom will respect another Dom and not bother, or speak to another's sub.
(Now, mind you. This isn't all Dom's. There will always be a few that will disregard this entirely.) It's just out of respect, you don't touch or pester other people's things, pets, etc.
It's almost like a gentleman's agreement of sorts.

It feels like subs do not have this rule at all. Multiple times in my inbox, I've had submissive folks approach me wanting me to take command and be a Domme to them since my profile reads "Switch."
Despite the fact I have it posted on my tag {Considered}, also in my profile it stated I'm under the consideration of someone else.
I even have a voice clip attached with my profile stating the same thing.

Or, I've seen multiple subs approach my Dom and pop up in his inbox.
He and I share every single message we receive to one another. So I see what happens just as he does. We know.

 

When I first heard subs were PMing him, I was a little insecure about it.  In my history, I've had a lot of people who were close to me pull a few stunts that's left a couple skeletons in my closet (But, that's neither here nor there.)  Over time and building trust,  I'm not worried anymore.

My Dom doesn't fool around, he will flatly tell someone either not to message him again if the first message sends up red-flags.
Or he'll state clearly that he will only talk with someone if it's vanilla chat, and I'm thankful for that. (Lemme stop myself before I start gushing too much...)

 

((Which, I see what you're doing there more manipulative, sneaky subs. Disguising conversation as friendship, then when my Dom or myself tells you we will only have vanilla chat, you disappear. That makes it pretty damn obvious what you were up to and what your intentions were...))

I won't lie, some of those messages have left me prickling up and baring teeth in dislike. Like... The audacity.
How many times can someone put in their profile:
"I'm not looking."
"I'm not interested."
"Only looking for vanilla chat."
"I'm considering... / considered by..."

When you look someone up, I'm pretty sure you have to go to their profile in order to message them privately or on BOND, aye?
So hence my sarcastic title.
subs apparently can't read.

Maybe I'm just showing my ignorance to the Lifestyle since I'm still learning- but it really does look like there's a double standard there.

 

I might just be being bitchy too; my toes are sore from having them stepped on.

 

So tell me, does anyone see this double-standard too? Is it just me? What problems like this do you all face?

To spend time together, my Dom and I often watch movies, play games, etc. We've fondly began to call it "Bonding night" (Haa- puns)
I am 99% certain this is gonna be a reoccurring scene during our movie nights~♥

With a whispered word from him.
Chains glowed venomously as their containment runes diminished and then the chain links on her wrists crumbled apart.
Oh, she was still his by all means.
With his permission, she was now free to unleash her fury. 

[[This is me just being silly; I got inspired to draw; this is what happens when Ash releases auria: the 'wigglefloof' to reek some havoc.]]