I don't know-- I read somewhere that writing unsent letters is cathartic and helps kind of "vent out" feelings, releases them, lets them go.
For whatever reason, when I woke up this morning. My mind was focused on my Ex's new girlfriend. (Well... I dunno how "new" she is - considering he had her on a back-burner for what I suspect was years. BUT, anyways-)
I'm very angry, bitter, and outright damaged by the things he's said and did. I know I'll never get the closure I wanted.
I'm tired of this boy renting space in my head.
I've been working really hard to move past him, to move past what happened. As mentioned. It's an uphill road. So yes, there might be hostility in this letter. There might be kindness, there might be hared. I don't know what I'll spit out yet. I'm kind of a storm of emotions; that's part of the reason why I'm doing this. I figured I'd post it here, because I'm sure every woman/man has had at least one instance where they wish they could talk to the ex's new girlfriend/boyfriend. Or, if you're the new boyfriend/girlfriend. I hope this letter helps- despite it's potential bitchiness and hostility.
I'm hoping this helps me too.
"[Name Redacted],
I don't know you. Frankly, I really have no motivation to get to know you.
As you read this, you might smirk or scoff. Mutter something about how 'you won' him over me or something equally childish. (Just from what I glimpsed of you, you look just as if not more immature than my ex.) I wanted to pose a few questions to you. Get your brain to think.
Whereas, you might think you 'won' over me, and how the evil "ex girlfriend" has been vanquished and you- the new founded princess- get to be with "Prince Charming." I'm warning you. He's just as much the demonic villain as he painted me out to be to you.
I can tell you what's going to happen. I don't even need to touch my tarot deck, casting bones, or other forms of my divination to tell you.
It's going to start wonderfully. Like a dream. Everything is amazing, and him? He's like something out of a dream. He's silly, dorky, loves traveling, seems well educated because he's been all over. (By my influence, mind you. He never left his own city before I came and had him travel with me to other Countries.) He'll talk about having a house together, getting married. Hell, he'll even drop hints to you he might pop the question in some grandiose way - because he's theatrical that way.
He's going to seem sweet, and caring. This may last a few months, to a few years maximum. He'll lull you into the relationship.
Eventually, you're going to start feeling like you're... Missing something. Slowly, a hole is going to grow and develop - and you're not going to understand what it is, or why it's there.
Everything's perfect right? He's wonderful.
Then why is it, that you feel incomplete? All of a sudden, he won't hold your hand anymore in public. won't kiss you in the kitchen, or dance with you in the living room, pull you to his chest at night and hold you. Little things that seem so superfluous, frivolous even- are gone. And you didn't realize how much you loved those things until they stopped.
Soon, you'll come to realize that... You? You're kind of worthless to him. Appreciation is a thing of mythos. You'll help him as much as you can. It's not enough.
He's still constantly unhappy be it by one thing, or another. It'll hit a breaking point.
It did for me.
Then. What will happen next, is all the devotion. All the love you've given. He won't even let you go properly. He's far too cowardly to look you in the eye, or break up with you like a man would.
No.
He's still going to try and keep a tether on you by downplaying your relationship. Stating he thinks it'd be better if you two 'remained just friends.'
despite how much work and effort you had put forth. Despite the fact you two looked at houses together, were close to being married, and spent years together.
As soon as you put your foot down and break up with him like an adult should- You'll realize that there's a new girl at his side. Where the hell did she come from?! But the way he interacts with her, the way the two of them are?
They've been together for awhile. This isn't a new relationship... He's had her on a backburner- hidden from you.
It'll be far too late when you realize. "Oh my God... He did the exact same thing to her." But I mean... You watched this happen to me from the sidelines. So I think you'd know precisely what I'm talking about when you start seeing similarities. Afterall, you were his fallback. You were the girl on the back-burner for awhile.
Which leads me to wonder a little bit what that entail... (Honestly, it's depressing to think about, I don't want to really know. )
because that's just how he is. That's his nature. The record may not play precisely like mine did. It'll be a new song- same underlying beat. He'll come in, Mr.Perfect. Then decay into his true nature. Once you don't play into it anymore? He'll try to string you along, and keep you. Too cowardly to open the door to the cage and let you go completely.
So.
If he did that to me, and that's how he brought you into his life. What makes you think he won't do that to you next once he's through with you?
Do you still think you "won" over me?
Signed-
- The ex girlfriend."
