I have always admired those who write so eloquently. Their choice of words woven to allure you, entice you, and draw you in like a moth to the flames. Words that bewitch and invite you into their dominion leading you down an intriguing path where you lose sight of warning signs. Their words speaking and calling out to you like a siren's casted spell. How do you not fall into that trap?
That's the question that has been plaguing my mind. In reading profiles and blogs, all I see are words that I question if they are true or genuine. They sound sincere and honest, because I know I am. Are profiles and/or blogs a mere ploy where they are used to lure prey? I was talking with my vanilla friend the other day, who is on a couple of dating sites, and she always shares with me about the men/guys she meets on there. She recently when on a couple of dates. One she says they went out for dinner when he arrived he did NOT look like his profile picture. The second one told her what he did for a living and where he lived and invited her over for dinner to his place - she went. Apparently, his definition of his profession and the type of home he lived in was clearly embellished according to her - from so called construction worker more like maintenance and from a cabin on the lake she said it was more like a one room dilapidated shack.
Words are beautiful until they are used deceitfully. After talking to a dom here, whose profile and even blogs left me curious wondering if he was as he described himself and truly the dom that could capture the mind, left me intrigued and after liking a couple blogs, he reached out. Pleasantries exchanged leading to a conversation and then questions, he appeared to write with such an art in which those words were speaking to me like a shiny stone that caught my attention. Quickly, I found that those words mean nothing if they are not real, hidden behind lies, causing more distrust. I even expressed and was upfront about my issue with trust mas having been lied to. I wonder if i was not clear about that.
I am butt hurt and still pissed that I was blatantly lied to. I asked the important and specific questions doing my due diligence to assure I didn’t fall. Unfortunately I did because I believed in something I wanted badly. It was shiny and fake dressed up with words to hide that there was no real value. The one time I am drawn to the light, I get burned.
Lies, lies, lies. Why do people to tell them? Why hide behind words that have no real value or hold truth when you’re intentions are to be deceitful? How do people sleep at night when they knowingly deceive, cheat, and lie? I am not perfect by any means but my conscious eats at me if I unintentionally may have hurt someone. The truth always comes out at some point, no matter how slick you think you are. Karma knows when to show up.
I find myself in state of asking questions all the time and questioning people’s motives and intentions. I don’t like being here, it wasn’t me. I am trying to get myself out of that corner and can’t allow myself to open up looking for reasons as to why I can’t.
Questions, questions, questions are all that are in my head as to if I can trust someone’s words because that’s all we have right now in this world.
They say time heals and that may be so. So I am hoping because I would hate to mess up the opportunity of finding my true real Daddy.
Still hopeful...
