I find myself desiring so much to go deeper into submission. Currently I am dealing with two tops. They know about each other and know I will choose one. It is fine with them as they know I am in a place where I'm finding what is right for me. But I am getting more lost instead of found.
I have found myself longing for aspects of both of them. One is amazing with my little space but also a strong Dom but he isnt an exhibitionist like me. The other has brought out my confidence. Brought out my exhibitionist. But recently I self harmed badly and he did nothing about it. The other one is dealing with it as soon as he arrives in a week. I dont know what to do. Is it possible to love two Doms. To need aspects of both. Or to want one as a Dom and one as my rigger. I just I dont know what to do. I just want to be happy..to find the man to sweep me off my feet and land me on my knees. I want joy..
