Submitting with Purpose

Right now in life I feel so lost and so found. I am in a poly relationship which for me has meant I have my Daddy and my Sir. With both of them I feel complete in very different ways. But the problem now...is I also feel lost. My soul is at a point of deep connection with them both and different days swings different ways on who it loves more. The man who can express his emotions to me. His care and desire for me. But can be overly emotional too. Or the man who has difficulty expressing his desire for me....but then the small ways he does mean the world to me. Who I could see spending forever with but who says he isnt forever material. How can one be so whole yet feel so torn. How can ones heart feel complete yet shattered. I stay up crying over it then one of them does something to wipe away my tears. And right now I lay here confused and lost. And hoping to find my answer.