littleonehoping(sub female){Earning}

Submitting with Purpose

All subs submit. But do we truly know the beauty of our submission. The beauty of releasing it all. Of putting our hope and trust in another. This is my journey to find not only my submission but the purpose it serves for myself and others.

Lost and Found

5 years ago. October 8, 2019 at 11:37 AM

Right now in life I feel so lost and so found. I am in a poly relationship which for me has meant I have my Daddy and my Sir. With both of them I feel complete in very different ways. But the problem now...is I also feel lost. My soul is at a point of deep connection with them both and different days swings different ways on who it loves more. The man who can express his emotions to me. His care and desire for me. But can be overly emotional too. Or the man who has difficulty expressing his desire for me....but then the small ways he does mean the world to me. Who I could see spending forever with but who says he isnt forever material. How can one be so whole yet feel so torn. How can ones heart feel complete yet shattered. I stay up crying over it then one of them does something to wipe away my tears. And right now I lay here confused and lost. And hoping to find my answer.

HisBelovedKitty(sub female){MSA} - Having a connection to one person is wonderful and you have two. That's amazing. I admire your ability in the poly lifestyle and if there is a secret to it, please share.
Your situation is difficult and I feel for you. However it sounds like your trying to make a choice on who could be forever. Why not both? You have a soul connection to them both. Sure, days are hard and sometimes I'm sure if it seems worth it. But they each give you something you desire so why not embrace it? Embrace who they both are, their differences, their faults and their strengths. Love them for who they are and what they give you and love them more for their weaknesses.
There is nothing wrong with making a choice but if you cant chose then why put yourself through it? I cant really speak a lot on the Poly lifestyle. I myself am having a hard time dealing with it and embracing it. But if you can love them both for what they give you and what they cant then I say do it.
I hope that helps.

5 years ago

TakenLower - Maybe you should take a step back and evaluate your true feelings. Spend a weekend alone, and really think about what you need with no distractions.

5 years ago

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littleonehoping​(sub female){Earning}

Submitting with Purpose

Lost and Found

littleonehoping(sub female){Earning}