slaveMikayla(sub female){MstrJ }

Once you are made REAL

I, like the velveteen rabbit, have been made REAL. I have gone through the process of seeing my own truest self and nature. I know WHO I am, and that can never be taken from me.
I am a slave hearted submissive with a heart the size of the ocean and an emotional capacity wider than the sky.
I am a woman of Faith, though a believer of the truth and validity many religions.
I am a singer, a trained chef, and an amateur artist of no remarkable talent ^__^.
I am above all else; myself, the velveteen slave.
The Man who "made me Real" has moved on from the chapter of my life, however I will always remain with the deep and abiding understanding of who I am; for "once you are made real you can never be made unreal again."

This blog is a catalogue of my journey. It includes the lessons that I've learned while walking down my path. It serves to help me remember those lessons that I might retain them. It is my hope that it can provide insight to others as well, perhaps spark an understanding or a feeling of camaraderie.

~The Velveteen slave; Faith; His Mikayla{MstrJ}

*The girl accepted MstrJ's collar on 2/10/22 and her new name; Mikayla <3

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3 months ago. January 24, 2024 at 7:01 AM

So ready to get on a plane to get back home to Him.

So ready for all that is possible this trip.

It's been a long few months, but at the same time it has flown by quicker than last year.

This time last year we were waiting to welcome him here, and that was a very different feeling. Both are wonderful and good. When welcoming Him here the focus is on giving Him an amazing experience, and also on family time. It was really exciting to know that I had this huge surprise for our daughter. Watching her sit at the airport and telling her to just watch the door, that she would know her Christmas gift when it got here. Watching her eyes light up and she gasped "MstrJ!" and ran to Him. Then showing Him life here, all the good, and beautiful, and weird, and wtf that life is here... it was excellent. However, there are limitations at that point. W/we have to be cautious about what W/we can say and do, and again, small ears and eyes are involved. So it was absolutely wonderful, but also to be honest, limiting as well.

Going Home to Him is completely different.

There is a very unique excitement and anticipation. W/we get to exist very differently. There are no small ears or eyes, and no expectations aside from His.

Yes, W/we have family to consider, and this time that has meant altering O/our initial plans. Little do they know their kindness and care has completely disrupted plans for a hell of a scene W/we have been planning for WEEKS. (They are really keen to meet us for dinner when I get in, as opposed to a few days later). However, the fact that they *want* to interact and want to be there to welcome me back home is very important to acknowledge. In a way, that's their support of the relationship and what they can do to be involved and show consideration.

This time, at least at this moment, there are not nerves. That's new. This is the first time that I'm not at all nervous. I know that He knows me. I know that He is fully aware of every thing I have to offer, and every drawback that comes with me. I know that I will not disappoint Him in any way, and I know that He wants me...

This trip has a different focus than previous ones. The first time it was just feeling eachother out really, and seeing if in person clicked. That was 3 years ago.

Then was that summer and that was to see His space and see if W/we got on in living life life for a short time.

Then I went back for last Spring break and that was dipping my toe into Winter, and honestly, W/we were so starved for affection it was "filling the cup".

Last summer it was seeing how W/we got in in the same space over an extended time. Do W/we do "life life" well, or will we drive each other nuts or anything.

Each stage has just a slightly different feeling.

This time all of that groundwork is done. W/we have all those answers and all of that baseline. Now it's coming home and now W/we are going to get to dive just a little deeper into dynamic. It's exciting. It's coming home. truly. No nerves, just ... anticipation.

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Every trip He sends me a song which sets the tone for my trip... waiting for this time's when He wakes up ^_^

last trip's

mine for this year:

His slaveMikayla

SubmissiveScorpion(sub female){Sir Bandit} - Can feel the excitement and anticipation!! Safe travels!

3 months ago

I'mME - Mikayla,

How ARE things where you live?

3 months ago

slaveMikayla(sub female){MstrJ } - oh.... well. Better than other places nearby, not to put too fine a point on it.
That question garnered a HUGE sigh. It's a great question, but it's just so very hard to answer.
Personally, the whole situation has put me in VERY tough positions... not only me, but our daughter as well. I've had to walk a very frightening and dangerous line because my own beliefs about good and bad, right and wrong, moral and evil are not in line with what's going on around me. I went through a time where my own safety here was threatened openly and quietly. I had vicious rumors spread about me, and outright lies which were born out of my refusal to just "go along" with the party popular line. Right now things are far calmer on the surface then they were a few months back, but I know there is a lot under the surface still.
There are rolling blackouts which have disrupted my time with Him, we have power cut 2x a day now for 1-2 hours at a time. It sucks when it happens to line up with the time I get home and the time He is getting out to work. We really rely upon that. So to lose that time sucks. It also sucks that we used to be able to spend 24 hours on a call, asleep or awake... and now many times the power will be cut while one is asleep which means that connection is severed.
We are also in huge financial turmoil. The currency has been devalued from an exchange rate of 12:1 to... drumroll..... over 60:1 .... inside of a year. Oh, and let's not forget that it's 100% impossible for me to use my financial resources outside of the country. All credit cards are stopped for foreign transactions. All exchange is stopped.
God has been merciful and He has been a freaking Knight in Shining Armor about it all. Last summer I ended up randomly meeting a family while doing a kind thing for his out of town family. In this random conversation they kinda fell in love with my teaching style and how I delt with their kids and they asked if I could do some tutoring for them. I ended up recognizing their little girl has dyslexia and I've been working to teach her how to read and spell and get through that. As a result, I have a bank account there with Him, and through the tutoring I've been able to purchase this ticket Home with those funds (and His help) and I've already got the funds for my summer ticket ... AND I have enough to buy vitamins and a couple nice things for our kiddo to bring back. If it hadn't been for that it would feel like a very different situation. I'm blessed that God handled my situation before I even knew there WAS a situation coming. I also know that I am His, and if it hadnt been handled this way, He's got me. I'm not alone.
tldr: things are calmer and still safe. Safer than at one time I was afraid it might be. Life is harder than I'd wish, but not at all unsustainable. <3
Thank you for caring! How are YOU?

3 months ago

I'mME - Hey M,
I'm glad to hear things are a bit more calm. I hope you have a wonderful visit with your Master, Mikayla. I will write more later.

3 months ago

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Once you are made REAL

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