This was something Jane wrote in front of one of her journals 2018. It was all she had a chance to put down for God called her home that year.
I WAS AN ANGEL
When I was young, I was an angel
I flew through lives touching them and moving on
one day I flew too close to a man he pulled me down to the earth
he filled me with lust thinking it was love
I stayed till I learned it was all one sided
I met another and our lust made another angel, but he flew on
and I was alone with an angel to raise and teach to fly
long I tried but my feet sank into the mud,
and I started to get lost and started to sink lower
Then I chanced upon a demon soul and wings black as night
look at you angel what the hell are you doing you have no place to stand on earth
He took me in his arms without permission and I felt safe again
with one flap of leathery wings, I was off the ground again
he gave me to another angel they helped me with my angel
his love was not always gentile
but in it I found a freedom I had not known before
She was soon to hold an angel within herself, and we were content,
but God called them both home
so together the demon and I raised the little angel we had
from me she learned love and kindness and of the light she had within
the demon knowing, she would not be able to fly away taught her to fly
he gave her the knowledge of man and all the things to be avoided
he gave her the ability to see into a man's hart so that unlike me she would not be trapped
she still fly's and like me has her own demon watching over her
he continued to let me fly and when I was tired, he stood feet on the ground
and I rested on his shoulders with too much room left over
for this demon was built to hold many angels safe above the ground.
Finally, I dropped to the ground put my arms around him
bound tightly with rope so I could not sink again
and found more angels for him to pull from the mud
they now stand on his shoulders when tired and fly free again
(In the end that demon's wings at last turned white and though the gates of heaven are barred to him his soul still stands guard and guides us and the children he made on the land he gave us for they are children of man, coming from the mix of angel and demon and are a gift from God.)
Mari
