The enshrouded pathway beckons me travel onward with the unfulfilled promise of a destiny unrealized, and a soul unfulfilled. As I make my way round the curves and valleys, the logical side of my brain begins to question my purpose, or my sanity, though both seem intertwined upon this journey, this quest, this all encompassing search for the Holy Grail.
Several endless years have now passed since I made my first footprints on this path, and I can tell you no reservations that the cost of this path is greater than any other path of its nature. This search for the True Bdsm Dynamic, this quest to find the one who will complete me, fill the jagged valleys while I fill hers, complete me as I complete her. While I could regress into my past a bit, and enjoy some physical encounters from time to time, I know in my heart that they would leave me hollow inside, and more alone than before, so I abstain, and endeavor to persevere in my quest.
So my mind wanders to purpose and process, do I need to revise? I read a blog today where a lady was hoping someday to be "won", I suppose like the knights of old. But, submission cannot be won, it must be offered and given freely to one who is worthy of keeping and safeguarding it.
Nor can it be enticed by a Poet laureate, a vanilla mate may succumb to such words and writings, but a submissive, a true submissive is far too strong to have her mind so easily tempted.
So what of the ancient ones, could she be simply sought out, and dragged back the cave? lol, she might enjoy the hair pulling, or the primal pursuit, but those pleasures of the flesh could never cause the act of submission by themselves.
Which brings me back full circle, watching, waiting, walking, and hoping. But at least I have the pleasure of knowing how much I have personally grown on this journey, how my eyes have been opened to possibilities I never before considered. And if in the end, the True Bdsm Dynamic escapes me, at least I am grateful for the journey and the friends found along it's path.
~~Just points to ponder~~
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